wednsday -- 12/30/09 -- 12:34am ~~ WOOT!! 50th post!!

yep... WOOT!!! post # 50.. thats half of 100, thats 1/10 of 1000, thats the square root of 1,000,000...

that means i'm almost at ONE MILLION!!!!!!

lol not likely

but if i accually stck to this for 1,000,000 posts i'll have u guys ask me to do something crazy or rediculous and i'll record myself doing that and i'll put the vid on youtube and link it to u all in the thought of the day for my 1,000,000th post, so start thinking now :)

anyway... my "today" is accually gonna start at about 4am last night...

at 4 or 4:30 am i was downstair chillin with a friend who practices wikka...
to b honest i dont know a damn thing about wikka..ism... (??) but i know that she had tarot cards and i had my fortune read 2 times

the first time it was pretty shitty...
it basicly sed that i have put up walls, and i want ppl to see the real me but i'm afraid to let ppl past the walls

it then sed that i was depressed, am depressed, and will be depressed and alone

the second time wasnt as bad...
it sed that i'd probibly end up depressed and alone, instead of saying there's no way of changnig it
anyway, so i went to bed at 6am... and got up at noon, and that wsa pretty much the highlight of my day.. o.. i did get new rugs in the living room, and i saw the truman show on tv and i talked to sue today... not for long, because she was tired but we got to talk which was pretty nice

anyway... now for ths SOTD...

link of the day #1 is accually a guy i'm subscribed to on youtube...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wmE9CeEltZg

LOTD#2 is drift away by dobie gray
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gr_eVcCAUXo

question of the day : what is the weirdest thing u have ever heard said?
if u want to add who sed it and all that fun stuff go ahead

thought of the day

"your father used to use a cock ring

it was really nice

made him last forever,

you might want to do the same someday"

[ direct quote said to chuck, from his mom]

tuesday -- 12/29/09 -- 10:45pm

hey there guys...

it's been a crappy day for me... i'm in a bad mood

it all started this morning, when i had to wake up at 9am..ya,, i didnt get to bed until like 3 30 or 4 and my dad's waking me up at 9am, but of course i couldnt tell him that i didnt go to sleep tilk like 4 cause he'd throw a fucking coniption fit

anyway.. i get downstairs after trying to sleep in for an extra 30-45 mins, and while i'm folding clothes, my dad starts talking about my lack of a job and lisence... thats what made me angry

then when he asked what the problem was and i gave my costomary "idk" he suggested maybe i need to see a psychitrist, a head doctor... thats when i got pissed

i acculy talked back to my dad this morning

now u may think " o, so u talked back to ur dad, so does everyone else"

ya,, but one thing u'd b forgetting... I'm not "everyone else"

i never talk back to my dad... not cause i'm a good person... hell no.. me a "nice person" hardly.. i put up a good face but if u boil it all down i'm not a good person, not at all, i'm an angry, hatefull person, who wishes devistation on everything i dont like
i write to keep myself kinda sane... if it wasnt for my writing i'd act as crazy as i really am, and i'd be as alone as i feel

anyway...
i dont talk back to my dad cause i dont wanna sit there for another god damned hour while he goes over the same points over and over and over again, and i hate my dad... not "strongly dislike".. no...hate

anyway,,, so thats what put me in a bad mood, then ppl gtting pissy when ther was nothing left to clean downstairs and i layed down in the recliner we have

anyway,,, ya, so my sister had a party which is y we had to clean in the first place, but i was in such a pissy mood, i didnt want to do anything but b a damn hermit

so basicly i have spent the last 6-6.5 hours in my room online

i went downstairs to say hi to my sister's russian friend cause she lived here for a few months during the summer, i figured i should at least say hi
and i went down when i thought everyone was gone so i could fix me something to eat

ok.. now the things that have made this day worth remembering...
i got to eat some butterball cookies for the first time in, like, shit,, it's been so long since i had butterball cookies i cant even remember when the lst time i had them was..
wel now it's easy,, "todday"
lol

anyway.. also, the writer for the elevator show became my friend on facebook today.. it would really make my day if we accually became friends and not just names on a list

anyway.. i have 2 songs of the day today, and they arent just good songs, they r songs that i heard today and they made me fell a little bit better today...

the first is let her be by the beatles then it's "hear you me" by jimmy eats world

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YBPFvp750sc&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=scLcUfhd2kY

and my question is do u like either song.. yes or no

my answer.. yes, i like both songs...
let her b is a soothing song to me and i love the beatles and it's easy to sing along to
and hear you me is just a beautifully writen song

thoughts of the day

(thats right,, i sed thoughts)

1) "may angels lead u in"

2)"http://www.bash.org/?123586"

monday -- 12/28/09 -- 2:58am

is it fucking late?... yes

did i just stay up for an hour and a half watching the first season of the elevator show?... quite possibly, (i'm not sure what season it was, it said sewason 1)

was it worth it? hell yes it was

i love that show,, it's on youtube... look it up, then while ur at it, after ur done loving it u can nominate them for a streamy, witch is apparently a internet version of a grammy

anyway... i didnt do much of nothing today

the biggest thing i did was i went into town and i hung out with some of bob's friends

bob accually gave me a good symbol for life today...

the tic tac toe game of life..."some times u win, sometimes u loose, but it's almost always a cat's game... and "X's" cheat"

and yes, thats was quoted directly from bob's one friend

because he had a tic tac toe game and there was 5 X's and only 3 O's

lol
anyway... it's 3am and i have nothing for u guys.. no song, no question, and hell, i'll make the quote above for the thought of the day

and for the song instead just go to youtube and watch a episode of elevator, and the question is "what did u think of the elevator?"

so there u go, another quick makeshift "shit of the day"... and i just desided that the song will become a link (tho i'll still try to make it a song) and everything will collectivly b known as "the shit of the day"

that way now i have a TOTD, QOTD, LOTD, and now "SOTD" for everything

anyway... i already told u i love elevator, so theres my answer of the day

have a great day, i'll talk to u all later

sunday -- 12/27/09 -- 12:36

ok, a quick post today

all i did was put the food back into the freezers, and throw some of the shit away
thats about it

well i gotto talk to sue, that was nice

o, ya... i got to see avitar today... my i have access to a totally legal dvd of the movie in theatres
lol
it's s great movie, u should go see it

so those were the 3 big things that happened today ~ freezer, sue, avitar

and sorry i dont have time to give u a song thought or question of the day, my dad is startign to get pissy that i'm not in bed

so i'll see about giving that all to u tomarrow

accually, screw it... i'll give u a very quick version of everything..

SOTD: hot hot heat - bandages.... good song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y3N9iSBanTs&feature=PlayList&p=2C0A8113B1AD1BBC&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=26

QOTD: do u have family, like siblings, parents, step parents, foster parents, whatever... also do u have friends that u consider family?

thought of the day

"bandages have advantages too"

saturday -- 12/26/09 -- 9:38pm

ya.. i'm posting this now for one main reason.. i am bored stupid right now

like i litterally have nothnig better to do than to write this thing now.. who knows, it may mean more sleep for me tonight

what i'm doing at this exact second is talking to ann and writing this
and when ann is talking to me it isnt so boring, but when there is no answer it hits again like a ton of bricks... it sucks

anyway... i'm so bored i may accually go and dick around on thissite called omegle...

omegle is basicly goes against everythinig u learned as a kid...
the whole thing is it is a 1 on 1 chat that is completely ananymous
it makes it fun to b whoever the fuck u want to b...
like one time i was a theif "stealing the guys internet b4 i stiole his whole damn computer"
theconvo ended quickly when i told the person on the other side was waking up and "i had to remedy the situation"
lol

anyway... ya, so i guess i shold get to my day...

basicly i took the trash out, defrosted a freezer, wentto geek out for several hours, came upstairs, got bored, wrote this

anyway.. ya.. that was my day

and now the song of the day is i witness by black sabath

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wtFi5K7Gw88

thanks erik for the SOTD :)

the question of the day... whats the most exciting thing u've ever done?

my life hasnt really been that exciting...
but i guess when we exploded the my sized barbie lol

i cant think of a TOTD today.. sorry guys.. maybe tomarrow

friday -- 12/25/09 -- 12:51am (meery christmas everybody!!)

hey there...
this will b a as fast as i can make it cause it's like damn near 1 and i need rest

anyway,, yep it's christmas

and i'm just gonna list the shit i got...

i got 2 ludo cd's
witch i totally didnt expect, especially after i asked my paerents for them like in september, and after i was called downstairs to make sure that they were the right ones like 5 times
lol

anyway...
i got a video game and a coaster of some kind i think.. idk, and my mom doesnt remember... apparently it as sposed to b my gift last year and my mom forgot to give it to me (lol)

anyway, i also got $65 from my mom. cause they spend $100 on each of usa kids for christmas, and the stuff i got only added up to $35 i guess

and then at me grandma's house i got a check for $50, with the request that i tell my grandma what i get with the money so she can feel like she's giving me something

anyway.. it was accully pretty boring at the x-mas party, dont ge me wrong, i had fun, i enjoy spending time with my family (most of the time) but it was just not that eventful of a day.

and i'm accully not at my sister's ouse like i originally thought i'd b, cause i'm notreally sure if i'm going to go to my aunt's "black sheep x-mas" tomarrow

on the one hand i would like to go cause they r still my family and it would b nice to see them
on the other hand it would hurt my mom cause.. well family issues and silly squabbles have slpit the family, my mom and my aunt r on different sides of the line
using a reference that i'm suer no one will understand/ really care about... if my mom was mr. fantastic during the marvel cival war, my auntwould b sue storm and i would b the thing, who basicly sed "this whole thing is stupid and it shouldnt b happening, i'm outta here" then he left for france

oh, comic books, again u supply me with an annaogy that few non comic reading ppl will understand

lol

anyway... so, the song of the day is another of my fave x-mas songs, carol of the bells
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e49TwXHZszU
the video isnt what i'd ike it to b ut it was the only video that had the long version of what i wanted

what is ur fave thing u got for christmas, if u dont celebrate christmas than what is a gift that u've gotten b4 that u really liked?

i already toldu what i got, but my fave things r my luco cd's cause i love ludo, i think they r a great band

thought of the day

"the best gift you can have

is company that cares"

thanks for the quote isabell :)

thursday -- 12/24/09 -- 12:50am

well today was kinda boring

i watched tv pretty much all day

except for when i helped my dad get microwaves from the garage

witch doesnt sound so bad, hell, it isnt really that bad
well except for when there's an inch of water everywhere in the garage from all the rain we had today

anyway... so ya, i spent the wholeday watching x-mas movies on tv then at 10:30ish i went to christmas eve mass, and i accualy sat with my mom
it may not sound like much, but i hardly ever sit with her anymore
if i go at all i sit in the back, but 2times a year i'll sit up with my mom... christmas and easter

i figure those r the 2 big "family all together" masses so i sit with her mostly cause i know it'll make her happy

anyway.. that was my day, tomarrow i may or may not post something cause there is a chance that i'll ride home with my sister to go to the "black sheep x-mas" that my aunt is hosting and idk if i'll have access to the internet, or if i'll even have time to post a blog

but i'll try as hard as i can to give u a blog tomarrow, but we'll see

anyway... SOTD: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ydO8-Sg2D3Q&feature=channel
it is what child is this as performed by josh groban, a great version of a great song

and the bonus song of the day shall be:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LAkb3OzLr7k&feature=PlayList&p=7F9F9907F9B4EEE6&index=11
this song is "hey santa claus u cunt" by a guy named keven bloody wilson
i thik its pretty funny

and i accually feel like adding 2 bonus videos cause it is christmas

first, santa isnt so cool: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3XOM31TpsJg&feature=related

and the second one is just a bunch of holiday fun:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oSqgYSJ5HhU

"despite all my rage, i am still just a deer on a sleigh"
lol

my question is what video do u like the best?

i like them all but my fave is probibly the last one

thought of the day

"I asked my brother what he wanted for Christmas.
He said he wanted cold hard cash.
So that's exactly what I gave him.
I got 20 $1 bills

soaked them in water

and put them in the freezer.
When he got it

it was just a block of green ice

that took a day to thaw."

thanks erik :)

wednsday -- 12/23/09 -- 10:48

hey there... again i really didnt do much today

i woke up about 10am, and got online to type my x-mas rant

tho to b honest, there isnt much u can get pissed about 5 minutes after u wake up
so the rant isnt as god as it could have been, but for once i'm not grumpy and "scrooge-y" about christmas, so i think it's a decent trade off

anyway.. after that it was do some stuff around the house, whitch really justr consisted of me getting the mail, then i ate lunch and then me and bob played magic

then everyone went into town and went to the bank to cash bob's check, from my grandma (she gave him his x-mas card today since he was ovre there doing something, idk what)

anyway... after that, me and bob went to wallyworld, and we walked around for a bit, then we ate at taco bell and headed to geek out, then we came home and cleaned some more, i did the dishes and swept the floor

then i played magic with bob again and then i got on my comp, and here i've been since

anyway.. here is my x-mas rant: http://mindofamadman666.blogspot.com/2009/12/364-days-of-christmas-o-and-christmas.html

and now the song of the day:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HTGlUMvbhSw&NR=1
it's the night santa went crazy by weird al, i saw it randomly in the related vids section on utube and it's a good song in my opinion, so i put it

and the bonus song of the day:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JEPhGrErQ3Q
and "god rest ye, mery gentlemen" sang by someone i dont really know
to b honest i like it better when it is sung by a guy with a deeper voice, not cause i'm sexist, cause i like singing alog with the deeper voices
lol

anyway, a quick question cause it's comin up on 1:30 :/
what r u hoping to get this christmas?

thought of the day

"Santa Claus has the right idea.

Visit people once a year."

~~Victor Borg~~

tuesday -- 12/23/09 -- 11:20pm

ya.. another borin day...

i spent all day watching youtube vids, trying to catch up on them all

and then i did a few things nessisary to live, like eat

but other than that i did nothing

ya, fun and exciting i know

ok.. so just so u guys know, i will try to have a rant for tomarrow... my christmas rant

now idk how long it'll take to write, so i'm gonnatry to set aside all day

anyway... so... since it is 3 days til christmas, i'm gonna b having my song of the day b x-mas songs...

today is one by a guy u may have heard of, tay zonday (the same ghuy who sang chocolate rain on those comercials like a year ago) it's called "christmas star"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6QzE7pJ9ZSo

it's a new song by him, i really like it

if u dont want to listen to him talk then just stop th video at like the 3 minute mark
but if u want to know the thoughts behid the song u should watch the whole thing

anyway... a question... hmmm.. i know (i may regret this later...) what r ur beliefs?.. like do u believe in a god, or gods, just some great spirit, or nothing at all?

i was raised to b catholic, or christian, or one of those.. i'm not really sure
but now i'm kinda my own thing, it revolves around values, like respect, self honor,equality and balance

i tend to, not really pray to karma, but i do ask karma to help me out

thought of the day

"https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiAUdSOl4Rh7qtAcxBartDSDXU9fvXI2y1cDj0pP7w9VF8hlaCAq1iGNUkkqNavrayU7X85P3-YuYN4UjuzdH9nxBCnRI03QE_uZEZQ5zjJSac9VtLB9yhLER1mOAtaJ5fDcSZxrUDEWIY/s400/Epicurus.jpg"

monday -- 12/22/09 -- 12:36am

i'm just letting u guys know right off the bat, i'm not in a good mood :/

i started my day in a good mood, but that changed rather quickly

basicly i spent today on my comp catching up on all the youtube vids, i haven't wached in the last like 2-3 weeks.. i'm starting to think i'll never get done :/

anyway... so about 6 pm i was talking to my one friend and he sed that him and another friend of mine were going to a cemetary that is sposed to b haunted or something, and i think that rumors say there is a satanic cult that goes there for wsomething or other, idk

i thought it would b an awesome adventure for me, and something interesting to read about for u, so i called my mom to see if i could go.. it was more just to let her know what i wanted to do, and that it was an hour or so away and i wouldnt have been back til probibly 2 or 3 am

anyway, my mom accually sed that i could go. so of cource i was excited, i didnt accually think that i'd b able to go, seeing as it was kinda short notice and it was an hour away

but anyway, i called my friend to tell him i was going to b able to go, he sed he'd pick up my other friend and then come get me.. 45 0r so minutes out of his way, to get me

anyway.. about 8:3o (about 15 mins b4 they r upposed to some get me) i tell my dad that i'm planning on going to a cemetary with some friends, and he starts freaking out, getting all pissy swearing up and down that i'm gonna get arested, and that he's not gonna get me out of jail, and how this and that, and it really pissed me off... i didnt even mention the satan cult, or my plan of staying til like 2am

i was kinda pissed after that.. not really that i couldnt go, tho dont get me wrong, i really wanted to go, but it was more that they came all the way out here to get me and i couldnt even go, so they came all that way for nothing

anyway... maybe next time i'll just tell my dad that i'm hanging out with friends, maybe i'll say its a party or some shit, idk.. but i'm not gonna tell him the truth, that obviously doesnt work

anyway.. i know i promiced a good meaningful song of the day, but i got nothing... and it's kinda late and i think i'm gonna skip it tonight

question of the day: have u ever told a half truth or a flat out lie to ur parents so u could do something? if so what was it and how did it turn out?

thought of the day

"
weight is like a Mississippi marriage

purely relative.
mass is constant"

sunday -- 12/20/09 -- 9:41pm

holy crap!! am i posting b4 the day ends??

hold up, i think i'm gonna call hell and kame sure it isnt freezing over

lol

but anyway.. it was a pretty boring day today,, but not a bad kinda boring...u'll know what i mean soon

al i did today was go to church, whiuch sucked cause i didnt go to bed til damn near 3am.. maybe later

anyway... all i really did today was go to geek out for a few hours, and wached tv

ya i know, what a boring day

well thats accually all that i did today...

today's song of the day is anoher from simon and garfunkel... it's called "i am a rock"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PKY-smJ6aBQ

ya.. it's just a good song.. tomarrow i'll try to have an accual song for u guys... not that i dont think that the ones i've been picking arent good, it's just that for the last week it's been "hmm.. i relly dont have a song for my blog... i should try to get one" but tomarrow i'll try to have a song to go with the day, or at least have a better idea of what it is going to b, like put moer thought into it

anyway... question of the day: would u rather b a rock or an island? (it has to do with the song.. also look at the TOTD for a better idea)

i think i'd rather b a rock,,, without pain u cant cry

thought of the day

"cause a rock feels no pain

and in island nevre cries"

anyway, i'll c ya'll tomarrow C:

sasturday -- 12/19/09 -- 12:57 am

fuck i have to start doing these things sooner or i'll neve sleep :/

i'm gonna have to make this a quick one, tho there is alot to talk about

it was a pretty fun day, anda shtty day, all wrapped up in one

"but shallow grave, how can this b??"

o, my non existant, over questioning friend, i'll tell u, dont u worry

well it started when i went to a x-mas party almost spesificly for my nephew and his family, cause they r from new hampture... it was nice 'cause doc's kid saw me... and when he did he pointed at me and waved.. kinda like "i remember you"(sed with a hint of excitment)
and by the end of the night my other nephew didnt look at me like i had a second head that was green wiht purple poka dots.. so i consider that an improvment... but who knows.. with a bit of luck by the time i see him again he'll wonder who the hell i am again

but.. i left my grandma's with a bad taste in my mouth... probibly cause during the night doc asked me my "have u ever shot someone?" question...

~~ since i'm sure u guys dont really know what i'm talking about, or at very least, may not, i'll tell u
basicly u should never ask a cop, or a soldiar "have u ever shot someone?" cause alot of them dont liek talking about it... for alot of them it willl stir old memories of them having to shoot someone, or maybe even of someone they were close to getting shot.. point being, dont ask it, they dont like talking about it~~

my question?... "when r u going to drive/ get a job/get a girlfriend" basidly anything that could be seen as a "u should have done this by now" kinda question... i'm pretty sure i posted something about that some other day... i'll probibly go back and check and if i didnt i'll add something right after this paragraph (or if anyone wants to save me the trouble if u remember me telling u about it just comment on this one)

so ya.. doc asked me when i was going to get my lisence, which is the one they usually pick, and so i was tellinghim about thinking about taking a semester off from college to work on getting my lisence
now i told him that i wasnt doing good in school anyway, so i was just wasting money going to school (i told him i was getting d's with a few c's but relly i failed everything i took this last semester, well i think i barely got by in prac, but the other 3 i just failed hard core, and that caused me to loose a friend, i'm pretty sure, but i dont want to think about that at all.

anyway.. and right b4 i accually left, like minutes b4 i did, ppl were asking me about a job.. so of course i turtled up and just kinda tried to get thru it as fast as i could

so pretty much for the rest of the night everything that used to b just a small "whatever" thing was then very irritating, and mad me more pissy, hence the bad mood i'm in now
or at least i really hope thats it, cause the alternitive is that it is one of these random bad moods i've been in lately... ever since july, i've been falling into these really bad moods, like i just hate the world when i get in those moods, i want to destroy something beautiful so that i can see ppl miserible, and the worst part is, i have no reason to b this angry.. it just kinda shows up, hangs around for a week or 2, then it slowly fades away

o... what did momentarily take my mind off today was i watched "nightmare b4 christmas" on tv
that made me smile for a bit :)

wow.. so much for this being a quick one

anyway, today's question is kinda a personal one, so if u dont want to answer the full question u cna just give me a yes or no answer...

QOTD: do u have a "have u ever shot someone" question, one that makes ur blood boil when someone asks it to u? if u do what is it? (if u feel like making it more fun for me when i read thru the comments feel free to say how it makes u feel, like when ppl ask me the questions i dont like i feel like stabbing something in the face, preferably whatever asked me)

i already gave my answer to the question above

sorry, i'm too tired to find a song ... accually, u know what?... the song is gonna b "this is halloween" it's from the movie, but when i have u look it up on ur own time, u can look up the movie or marelyn manson has a version thats pretty good

sorry... i am too tired to think of anything for the TOTD... sorry... if u have a good quote feel free to put it in the comments

friday -- 12/18/09 -- 1:15am

today was pretty dull...

the highlight of my day was watching major payne..

ya.. the best part of my day was a movie :/

o well
at least it was a funny as hell movie

o... ya, thats my suggestion to everyone

if u havent seen that movie u should

anyway... i played games and did a little bit of work today...

tomarrow i'm going to a x-mas party, should b pretty fun
but we'll see

anyway, i didnt accually get onm my comp until damn near 12. i was playing magic with bob

well thats about it...

SOTD: sound of silence by simon and garfunkel
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BvsX03LOMhI

it's just a beautiful song.. definately an oldie but goodie :)

QOTD: have u ever listened to the sound of silence b4? if u have tell me about it

MAOTD: i've done so lots of times... if i'm in a particularly bad mood i will just kinda lay in the dark and just let the nothingness surround me.. it is really calming for me.. what about u guys?

thought of the day

"In that one shining moment of glory

we made our children cry in horror

our peers cry in fear

and our elders cry because we're leading the country!"

thursday -- 12/17/09 -- 11:29

wow what a day...

i got up, ate breakfast, then it was off to my brother's house to see my nephews.. all 3 of them

thats right.. i went to doc's house and saw all 3 nephews

it was pretty awesome

tho i felt kinda happy and kinda sad...
doc's kid said bye to me when i left, or at least said it the best he could but, he didnt say bye to my mom, and i could tell that hurt her

cause my sister in law told her kid my name, but didnt make any effort to say "this is grandma"

but anyway.. after that i got to to my grandma's house, who was in a depressed mood.. so thats always fun

i came home and ate supper (mmm to spicey tuna and noodles :P--> :b lol)
then i went to call sue, cause i havent talked to her in a while.. didnt turn out as i had hoped :/

anyway.. after that i got on my comp and here i am still

ok.. song of the day is imagine by john lennon
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VM0Z75KEd_o

i picked this song cause i heard it on the radio and was like "that would b nice if it were true" and it's just a good song by a great songwiter

anyway.. question of the day... what do u imagine the world was like? what would b ur perfect world?

MAOTD: tbh, i dont give a shit about the rest of the planet, my perfect world would b all my closest friends being walking distance from me :)

thought of the day
"the powerful play goes on
and u may contribute a verse.
what will ue verse b?"
from the movie "dead poet's society"

wednsday -- 12/16/09 -- 11:43pm

ya... again. nothing that exciting



well ok, maybe there was a few things



like i held my nephew for the first time, he's getting really big for just being a month old,

and my sister came in from college today, i saw her

and my brother came in from new hampture to visit for christmas with his wife, witch honestly surprized me since she pregnant and due in spring some time (i didnt think she'd accually fly here) anyway.. ya, thats all thats up with me

(cue the everyday stuff)

SOTD: dig up her bones by the misfits
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w3dAl0fyEp4

i just really like this song :)


QOTD: do u have family coming in for the holidays, or r u the family coming in for the holidays?

thought of the day

"If u close ur mind

and close ur heart

to thngs that r different,

then u close any chance of learning…

prefer to keep my mind open...

so i can stop trying to learn

who ppl think i can b

and start learning

i can b everything i want to b”

tuesday -- 12/15/09 -- 1:21am

ok... short one for today

basicly i played video games all day

boring i know

but i also cleaned out my mom's van for tomarrow (i gbet to see my bro, his wife, and my nephew :))) <-- [ BIG smile] )

but ya,, thats pretty much it

o.. i also delivered bread today
and i drove at night for likethe 3rd time ever.. that was kinda exciting, if u compare it to vid games :/

anyway... so my song of the day is from the same guy as yesterday's... it's been stuck in my head all day, and it's a great song
SOTD: TKO on Valintine's Day by myownconviction http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v9_N_9CXJTY

QOTD: refering to the SOTD, who r u? like what animal r u, if any?

my answer to the question of the day is accually the respoce to the video... so u'll have to check out the video to see my answer

just so u know, the video is 7:53 long video

anyway...

thought of the day

"memories r nice

until they betray u

and make u remember the failures in life"

monday -- 12/14/09 -- 12am

hey there

ya,, it's been a nothing day...

i folded clothes, wached a christmas movie (it was the christmas card for those of u who care)
o, and i watched the last half of "21" it is a good movie

i mopped the bathroom floor, and thats pretty much it

boring day i know

anyway... song of the day is a song called "city of fallen angels" by a guy on youtube... his account name is "my own conviction".. it's a great song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1pcyqw_YpT8&feature=channel

QOTD: what is a movie u like alot? (i'm not gonna put u thru the trouble of trying to pick ur fave movie... too much work involved lol)

MAOTD: hmmm... i cant even pick one that i liek alot... there is so many

lol

thought of the day

(it accually is from the SOTD)

"Im found left here

lost without guidance

with so much uncertainty

Atlantis is burning

right before my eyes

as I pour down the gasoline

My mind is a gutter

cluttered with broken bones

and screaming wounded souls

The angels are falling tonight

right before my eyes

for to the Devil I have sold"

sunday -- 12/13/09 -- 11:35 pm

ya.. so it was a "clean til u bleed" day again... i totally thought it would b over with the raising of the christmas tree
i was wrong

ya, u wanna know the jobs i hd today?

well after i got up at 10 i was on my comp til 10 30, when my mom was all like "come down here and clean or u loose the internet

seeing as my meager existance revolves around the internet, i didnt weantto chance it

so going downstairs i gotto clean the bathroom then i ate breakfast/lunch and swept the steps... i then got to scrub the walls in the stairs to get rid of the fingerprints.. ya, thats right... i had to take a sponge, and a bucket of water and scrub the stairway walls... then i got to scrub the steps :/

it wasnt that hard of a job.. just a factory kinda job.. u know.. like the same thing over and over... it gets really monotnous really fast... and the worst part is i somehow end up with the job every year... probibly cause my mom knows i'll accually do it, and not complain.. well not too much
lol

anyway... i did get a chance to talk to sue today, which was nice... but it was only for like 10 mins, and i was kinda bummed about that.. i havent been able to talk to her that much cause of all the cleaning i've had to do... but hopefully that will change soon...

i'm kinda excited, i get to see my fave nephew in liek 3 days :)

idk if ur sposed to have a fave neice/nephew, but i do
lol

but ya... i cant wait to see him

ok.. i'm gonna try something new today, i want to know if u like the idea or not

introducing... (incert drum roll)

the song of the day...

this could b a song that describes my day, or one thats stuck in my head, or one that i just like

SOTD: ever after happily http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AHvol-aeeYo&feature=fvw

it's by a man named jay brannon, and it is just a really good song

QOTD: ... u know what? how about instead ofa question i make a request...

i'd like u to find a link to one of ur favorite songs.

i want to know the kinda stuff u like, and i always enjoy expanding my musical library :)

o.. b4 the thought of the day, i have come to believe that there is only about 2 ppl who read this thing everyday... if u feel like it, link this to ur friends if u think they would like it, i'd love to accually have ppl read these things.. well more than just like 2 of u

also.. cant wait...3 days til my blood family comes here, 22 until part my other family does, too bad i cant have all of them here for christmas... o well.. one is good enough for me :)

thought of the day

"the only thing worse

than a young pessimist,

is an old optimist"

~~ i believe that was mark twain who sed that~~

saturday -- 12/12/09 -- 12:21am

ya... happy "assumed 3 years left until the world explodes" day

or at least thats what lots of ppl say :/

i personally dont know, i figure i'll just live, have a fucking good time, and then die.. if i can make a few freinds and help some ppl along the way, all the better

anyway... ya.. today wasnt as much fun as i would have liked...

i basicly cleaned the house all day.. gotta get ready for my little sister coming home from college and my older bro coming in with his family (probibly) sometime within the next week or so
and my mom wanted the christmas tree up by then

now ussually i'm a big scrooge around christmas cause i hate holidays, for the main reason that they have become nothing more than just excuses to spend money, but thats all i'm gonna say about that, cause i dont waht to start a rant or anything

but this year i'm tryign to fight the scrooge and b kinda jolly, cause i have a friend coming in from the other side of the country, and it will b fucking awesome :)

so ya... clean til u bleed day went pretty ok i guess, we got the shit that needed moving out of the way and we got the tree up, also my mom and bob decorated the tree, so it should b all good tomarrow... but who knows

all i know is i cant wait for about 23 days... and yes, i have started counting days til u come visit :)

anyway.. ya... the next month or so should b a blast... but then again shit has a habit of not going how i hope

whatever...

anyway.. ya... QOTD: who is ur best friend and y?

(u donthave to say me if i'm not... u dont get any brownie points if u pick me)

MAOTD: hmmm... this is a toughy... i guess i'd have to say, either my friends issabel, sue or someone from the r and r club, maybe erik

issabel cause she seems to be there when i need her to b

sue cause she;s one of the only ppl i've told differnt things

r and r club cause i know that if i need anything, there is 5 =10 ppl there who will jump at a chance to help, just cause they r great ppl like that

and erik, well how else would i know about bash or amazing horse (lol)

thought of the day

"bah humbug...

well....

maybe not this year"

friday -- 12/11/09 -- 12:30am

ok.. it's late and i'm gonna b forced to b up early tomarrow, so i'll try to make this short

the short version is i had to help clean my house all day

now that's no different than anyother christmas, well all except the fact that all the shit that is in the way is my mom's stuff, acumulated over the course of a year, no problem there, and my dad's shit form my grandma's old house, now ocupied by my sister and her huband (the one i'm not too fond of) that i cant do jack shit about, but i'm sposed to help... ya, makes perfect sence

and when i took a break my dad bitched a bit...

tho in his defence he didnt know that i had only stopped working just minutes b4, tho he did ask me to help after i told him i stopped just mnutes b4, and that i had brought the x-mas tree board from the garage by myself cause i knew bob wouldnt b home right afte school (he never is) and i got tired of waiting, so i manuvered the damn thing out of the garage and brought it to the porch

probibly didnt do it the best way i could, which is just lift the damn thing and rest it on my head... my fro was cooshening my head and i just held it up with my neck mussles... like i sed, probibly not the best way to do it but o well, my body is probibly gonna fail within 20 or so years anyway... might as well get some use out of it

anyway... QOTD: what is something u dont like about u parents? list as much as u want to

my answer of the day: in one word "dad" but spesificly the big one is that he cant seem to buy a machine that works properly, and other things as well

thought of the day

"since all i wish

seems to never come true;

all that i wish

is the best for u"

thursday -- 12/10/09 -- 11:29pm

hey there guys... i'm feeling a bit down right now so i'll probibly try to keep this short. well thatand it's midnight and i got a whole 4 hours of sleep last night, and i wants my sleep...

anyway... it startedout pretty ok... i go to ecc to chil with friends, i have fun i come home.. i've been doing this all week, nothing special

but ya... this one was different. and i'll get to that in a minute..

first, something that was pretty cool that happened today (or at least it was cool to me)

"da phro" was powning the fuck out of ppl in modern warfare 2

for the everyone who doesnt know this, "da phro" (sposed to sound b like "the fro" for my awesome hair ;] ) is the profile i have on my firend's x-box...

and for the most of u who dont know this, i suck at videogames... like hard core suck

anyway... my profile was logged in (or whatever the term is) and there were 2 really good gamers who played on my proflie, so now Da Phro powns the hell out of lots of ppl on that game, wel until later when scary pat plays on his since he is accually unlocking shit now (lol)

anyway.. ya... i'm really pissed because my dad brought up my lack of lisence (i know, i know,,, "y dont u just get ur lisence?" and to b honest, idky... it just seems hopeless at this point... i just dont really care anymore)

i'm also feelin blue cause i was just told a bit ago that i cant hang out with my friends tomarrow...
i wanted to go to this little resterant in labidy to eat but i dont have a definate ride home so i cant go, which really has me down cause if i deside to not go to ecc next semester and just take a semester off from college, like i was thinking i might do, then i wont see the kids in r and r club probibly til next augest, that is if they r still going to school there by then... idk what to do

well it's 12:30 and i really should go to bed...

so QOTD: what kinds of things do u do with ur frineds when u hang out together?

thought of the day

"bad is great

compared to worse"

thanks philip defranco show for that one

( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I3V7DKZnw8c&feature=channel )

wednsday -- 12/9/09 -- 1:11am

ok... i'm gonna just breeze over what happened today cause i can feel my eyes burn and my brain is screaming go to sleep, so this will b as quick as i can make it...

well i got up at like 8 and then went to ecc... i chilled there til about 5 or 6 when i left...
we had to go to wally world to get stuff for my grandmas and we had to go back cause bob wanted to get some magic cards... i figured since i was there i'd get some myself, so i did

when i got home i had just enough time to get warmed up fro mthe freezing cold outside when i had to go to both grandmas' houses to give them stuff and to deliver bread

i got home at like 10:30 and talked to bob about magic until about 11:30 or 12 when i got online and got distracted by an email from my teacher sayign that i have til friday to get my paper turned in or i'm just up shit creek without a paddle

anyway...thats pretty much it... i am a bit like "blah" cause i was sposed to call sue when i got home but she usually goes to bed about 9:or 9:30 so there was no way to really call... i'll just have to call tomarrow

anyway... i'm way to tired for a QOTD or a TOTD...

i know... if u guys have a question u want to ask me or a TOTD of ur own... comment

(and the TOTD doesnt have to b about anything in particular... just whatever is on ur mind)

well good night to all, and to all sleep well, when u do manage to sleep... i'll cya tomarrrow :)

tuesday -- 12/8/09 -- (idr what time i started this thing)

hey there... i accually had an exciting day today...

i went to ecc to chill with my freinds and to beg and plead a teacher to let me turn a paper in so my partner wouldnt fail the class, saddly i didnt see the teacher so i emailed her just a litttle bit ago, and hopefully i can go up there again tomarrow, too see if i can meet with her... who knows

anyway..
on a good note, i was there when my freinds desided to go to borders and go eat

so at 2pm, i hopped in my one friend's car and a bucnch of us went to borders, where i got this really interesing book about serial killers...
idky but i find that kinda stuff really interesting, but i do...
i mean it's fasinating to read about the minds of ppl who can kill a shit ton of ppl and not feel remourse

anyway... then we went to best buy

my friend chad was like "we went to borders where i'll spend alot of money, we should o to best buy where u'll spend alot of money" lol...
i had to laugh at that a bit

anyway... so we stoped at best buy and i baught Marvel ultimate alliance 2 for the playstation 2 to b honest, i like basicly everyting about the 3 60 version i played more, but the ps2 version isnt bad, just different

well there was a long john silvers/ A&W right there so we stoped there for dinner and it was just all in all a pretty good day

i came home and i played marvel 2 for a while with bob, then when he went to eat supper i called sue and it was generally a good day

well up until i saw that isabel was having a bad day... now i wish i had time travle so i could help her out :/

but dont worry kid... imma gonna find me a time traveling master and i will learn to b the best time travelr in the history of the world and then i'll come and help u out :)
lol

anyway.... QOTD: what is ur fave song?... or a song that u really like at this time, maybe one that has been stuck in ur head

my answer of the day (MAOTD): right now it is "this is hollween" from the nightmare b4 christmas/ manson (remix) and one that has been in my head for like 2 weeks now is the TOTD link

thought of the day
"http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_RjMSWhGWak"

monday -- 12/7/09 -- 10:56pm

thats right kids... i'm not stating this thing at 12 or later... i'm accually startign this b4 11
i know, i know... hold the aplause

not much accually happened... i took my theater final in like 15-20 mins... but they r alot easierwhen u know u already failed the class :/

anyway... i came home and then had to cut up the wood i got saturday and stack it... i talked to a couple frinds on the phone, then i came upstairs and got on my comp

wow... i was pretty much done b4 12 thisa time... just needed time to find a good quote lol

anyway... QOTD...how r u doing on ur finals.. and if u arent in schaool, what was ur least favorite subject?

my answer to the QOTD... i am failing them all really badly :/ thats y i'm tinhking i just wont go back to school next semester...

i may go there a few times to just hang with friends, but i really need to work on my driving

thought of the day

"http://bash.org/?830747"

[u may not understand all the jokes in the quote... they r all bash jokes]

sunday -- 12/6/09 -- 11:18pm

ok... i'm gonna make this a fast one.. i need to go to bed (what else is new?)

anyway.. here we go

ya, so friday i totally forgot about my exam for my world music class was that day... mostly cause i dont have that class on friday, and it really messed me up... o well.. i'm not gonna pass that class anyway :(
whatever...

well today i got up and went to church, i had to go to my grandmas' houses to drop stuff off

then i went to geek out

now idk if i explained geek out on here or not...
but think if a nerd's heave and a gamers heaven was fused todether,,, it would look alot like geek out...

it is a great place where u can buy cards for card games, or get on the internet, or just chill with friends... i'm accually kinda sad that it is closing on january 4th :'(

o well...
i really only go to chill with friends, so i'll manage with out it

anyway i then came home, got on the comp... sue called... basicly right as i was looking to see if she was online cause i wanted to talk to her... nothing really important, just i havent talked to her in like a week or 2 and thats way too long :/

anway.. since i was on the phone and ann wanted to talk to bob i let him on my comp for like 2 hours while i played the x-box, then i got on my comp, and here i am

anyway... QOTD...what is ur faveorite store?

also.. do u like the bash quotes as the thoughts of the day... i'd really like to know if u like them or not...

thought of the day (part one)

"http://bash.org/?572066"

[i'm telling u guys now.. thats a long one but i had tears i was laughing so much when i first read it]

(part 2)

"oh, i'm a lucky man

to count on both hands

the ones i love

cause some folks they've got one

and others they've got none

uh-huh"

[from pearl jam -- just breathe]

saturday--12/5/09--12:22am

ya.. first of all... i want to say that i totally forgot to mention that the 3rd was my sister's b-day... but tbh, i dont care... thats th esister that i dont like, i dont like her husband either...
it's not really that i dont like THEM it's mor ei dont like being around them...
cause it seems every time i talk to them they give me shit about not driving, not havign a gf, not having a job, and just generally everything that i should have had by now if i was every other "Joe Shmo" in america... (i'm taking thias time to say, that my "failures" in life is a touchy subject for me... i used to just shrug it off and just not like it when ppl brought it up... well until for my birthday myfamily pretty much got to gether and gave me a lovely gift... the 3rd degree..."so robbie, when r u gonna get a job? when r u going to get a lisence? when r u gonna do this? when r u gonna do that?"... i mabaged to fight back the tears and the urge to stab every one of them, but i look back and it's definately filed under "try to forget".. tho i doubt i will

thats not to say that if i know u, and i have already told u and u mention it i will want to kill u, for the most part, if it isnt a constant thing, i wont mind, but if it is ppl that i r meeting me for the first time, i'd apreciate it if u left that part out... ppl cant seem to understand that i was busy making eagle scout from 16-18... and then i took a year off to re balance my lazy (lol) so i've been working decently at it for about a year or so

well now that thats out of the way... onto my day...

it was meh/ so-so

it was sposed to b a work day, but i managed to b on my comp til about 11:30, then i ate lunch and swept the steps... i watched bob play the x-box for a while then i had to go to my sister's house... yes, the same sister who i mentioned above, cause apparetly (i'm gonna call him "cory")
had some wood for us to burn, even tho i thought we werent going to burn wood this year... o well, whatever.. ok.. seemingly totally random (STR for now on)... did u know i am a master in ohwel fu... i am...it's a great defensive art form where u just dont give a damn abotu the argument... "damn it shallow grave... i fucking hate u!!" "whatever"...and blocked
see that simple.. ppl should really learn it.. it makes life so much easier
and back to the day.. which isnt much... i got home, played magic with bob then turned on my comp and blogged

ok... today's QOTD is the brain child of isabel... so thnas kid :)

what is the funniest thing to say afte sex?
not the funniest thing u sed, or someone else sed, just if someone sed it...

b4 u r all like "eww.. thats gross" just know that perverted thinking is a great ie breaker if it the group that is perverted... joking about sex and penises and vaginas and stuff in a group enviroment causes ppl to b more cofortable in the group, if ppl r more confortable they will open up more and talk to u

thought of the day

"http://bash.org/?777977"

bonus QOTD... do u like the bash quotes i keep using for the TOTD? do u even read them? i'd like ur honest answer please. thanks

c u all tomarrow

friday--12/4/09--2:37am

yup.. u read the time correctly.. it;s fucking 2:30 in the damn morning, and i just got on my comp... no distractions like pw cause i didnt even play that cause i knew i'd get distracted and then not go to bed til like 2... ya.. great job of getting to bed b4 2

anyway.. i accually had a pretty awesom emorning, and a pretty boring afternoon/evening...

this morning i made a "super safety vince claus pimp tree" today and i made a bitch tree to go with it...

i dont have pics of the completed project, just mostly done with the main tree....

i have just one thing to say about that... BAM

BAM

ya... in case u cant seee it that it a plaster mask whereing safty goggles... it has gloves on and it is carrying a pimp cane in his hand... the red cloth is accualy a super man cape and the bow was so that the tree wasnt exposed (it is gonna b in a family show lol)

anyway... we also added a santa hat and a very noticeablly fake grey-ish beard after this pic was taken.. i'd have gotten the pic but my camera died on me and i didnt have any AA's

but ya.. that was really he only exciting/entertaining part of my day...

tho i guess shawn helping me make my magic desk better was exciting to me... and the vid games i played all day was mildly entertaining for me...

but not so much if ur hearing about it.

anyway... QOTD, to continue with the last ones... do u have a favorite vid game? if so what one... and to go more in depth, do u have a favorite counsal (basicly do u like the playstation something over the x-box... those r counsals)

thought of the day

"http://bash.org/?823214"

yep.. its another bash quote today :)

give me a break... it's 3:30 am :/

lol

thursday--12/3/09--12:28am

hey there kids... i'm gonna try to make this a quick one, i have to get up earlier than normal cause i have to b in town at 745 so i can carpool to ecc

anyway... it was a blah kinda day... not "blah this sucks".. just blah

i got up, talked to ppl online, and played perfect word (now just going to b called "pw") for a while [pw is the game i downloaded yesterday... i cant remember if i told u all the name.. i'll probibly scan back over my posts to see to check the comments and look then]

anyway... i got off about 2ish, and ate lunch...
now today was sposed to b a work ur ass off day

but luckily my mom put in a video of he going to some butterfly place so she got distracted by that, i went upstairs and played some vid games, then played pw some more, talked to ppl online then did this blog...

i almost forgot the QOTD and the TOTD...

ok... to continue with yesterday's QOTD... do u play any card games... like yugioh, not like poker
and if so what is ur fave if not then do u know someone she does? ... accually, fuck it.. i'll include card games like poker as well... tho still try to answer the original QOTD

thought of the day

"http://www.bash.org/?75154"

just go to the link for the quote... it was too long to type

monday--12/2/09--12:30am

hey there... this is gonna b a quick one cause i really should get to bed, tho i doubt i accually will anytime soon...

wella basicly i went to school, played magic a bunch, came home, finished downloading the patchs for perfect world and i've been distracted by it since about 11

anyway.. it was relly awesome... my friend shawn just gave me 60 magic cards cause he didnt want them... he gave me 60 that can go together in a deck... and its prety good too... i really like it... so thanks shawn, even tho idt ur gonna read this lol o well

so ya.. that was my day :)

question of the day... do u have a game online that u like playng or that u'd like to play?

thought of the day

" "can we please eat mommy?"

"can we please eat, mommy?"

puntuation... it can save ur life"

*thanks isabel for the quote :) *

tuesday--12/1/09--11:31pm

ok.. i have to make this a fast one cause i told my mom i'd b off by 12 and bob told me that my mom sed that if i ddnt go to bed at a decent hour then i'd get the net taken away, and i dont want to test it cause then i wont get this blog in, then when i get back i'll have liek a week to discuss

that and i have learned that me - internet X 1 week = holy fuck i missed alot of shit

anyway... my day...

well i got up about 8ish and basicly spent all day playinmg x-box and downloading this game that a bunch of my friends play called perfect world.

i dont even know if its gonna work on my comp but i really hope to hell it does, other wise i wasted a day :/

well.. i spent all day doing that up until about 4 when i went to practice driving, which went pretty good i think, i'm no professional yet but i will be soo enough ;)

anyway... i drove to my my dad's mom's house and my mom helped her there, by the time we left there it was dark and i'm not up to driving at night yet, so my mom drove to get the bread we always deliver, then it was off to my mom's mom's house...

boy what fun that was.... she was, and i quote, "in one of those moods" basicly one of her "no one loved me" moods which i know it sounds heartless and cruel but to b honest, i didnt care...

i just put on my stone face and just listened to her rant about this and that, about life and ppl, about god, about past and present... i was there to drop off bread... i was there over an hour.

anyway.. i came home and got online, and here i stayed pretty much for the rest of the night

well night kids... no question today, but i do want to point out to anyone who hasnt realized it yet... if u posted on my blogs b4, i've posted back... and if u comment again please let me know who u r... weather it b an inside joke we have, a name i gave u in the blog, ur real name, or if i dont know u what name do u want me to know u by

thanks

thought of the day

"Capitalization

the difference between

"I had to help my uncle Jack off a horse.."

and

"I had to help my uncle jack off a horse.." "

thank you bash.org :)

monday--11/30/09--12:57am

wow.. not much to say about today...

it was the nothin'est, nothin u ever did see

i went to school, came home from school, got on comp...

o, there is one thing... rusty is banned from my room,, probibly til the end of tomarrow, or until i get too lazy to move him...

2 days in a row... 2 fucking days in a row... he throws up on my bed, which was on the foam that i sleep on and it leaked thru onto my mattress... and my floor... needless to say i'm kinda pissed at rusty now

well that all that happened to me today

question of the day seemed to work pretty decent last time.. let's try another (please leave some way for me to know who's writing the comments, like an inside joke, something that i'm doing for u, a name is always an easy way to go lol)

anyway... question of the day... since rusty has been in my news for 2 days in a row.. do u have any pets? if u do then what is one thing that annoys the hell out of u, if u dont then if u could have a pet what animal would it b?

i have 3 cats... rusty, zoe, and kitten...rusty, as lovable as he is, throws up in my room all the time and he is always in the way,also he seems to try to b in the way
zoe is just bitchy alotof the time... and kitten?... well i'll save kitten for another day..
lol
but what i really want is a dog :)

night everyone, when u sleep i hope u sleep well :)

thought of the day

"the only thing worse

than a young pessimist,

is and old optimist"

~mark twain sed that i believe~

sunday--11/29/09--12:41am

well holy hell...

can shit get any wor--.... wait... no...
i will NOT finish that question...
we all know what will happen if i do.. and even tho im going to post this and then hit the sack, im not gonna jinx it

anyway.. holy fuck what a day...

i woke up to rusty doing what he seems to do best... throwing up in my damn room...
today he desided to thow up on my bed, just like he has like a billion fucking times just in the lst 2 months or so, and under my desk...
so my first job of the day was to clean up his throw up.... and it just went down from there...

after i got home from church , yes i accually went to church today.. i kinda had to.

anyway.. afte i got home from church i got on my comp fopr a while then bob asked if i wanted to go to wal-mart so i could buy him cigeretes... i didnt think it would take that long so i sed sure, but i did want him to b nice to me and give me something for wasting my time when i didnt have to... i thought it would take liek 30 mins... it took damn near 3 hours...
bob's car was in the damn walmart for 3 fucking hours, and the only thing of note that i did was that i baught a soda and used mt buy one get onr free cap that expired at the end of the year, but i had a month to do that...

i wasted 3 fuckignhours of my life and for not a damn thing, if nothing else i got more nothing than i usually would have... cause bob convinced mom to buy him some magic cards... magic is a card game, kinda like yugioh but alot better...

anyway... it was a double deck (2 sets of cards in the same box) and it had 2 really good cards in it... bob sed that he would pay half and i would pay half and then i'd get one deck, he gets the other...
so my mom agreed to buy it, and after playing a game with the new cards bob desided that he wanted ALL the cards, and that he'd just pay for all of it... now normally i wouldnt care but u know the 2 "really good crads" i was talking about earlier? well i didnt care about the rest of the cards... i just wanted to have one of those cards, cause they r a special kind of card called a plains walker... i dont really have time to explain what it is exactly but i figured i'd put that in in case anyone reading this knew wtf i was talking about

well bob wanted both plains walkers and i wanted just one.. i didnt give a damn about the rest of them.. and he wont give it up.. he keeps trying to convince me to just let him have them both...

well whatever... whats a good squabble, some good cards and a broken agreement between enemies.. huh?

anyway.. also during lunch i wsa trying to pour a glass of milk and hold a banana in my mouth.

("but shallow grave... y did u have a banana in ur mouth and y didnt u set it down?")

well my inquizitive (and be it, non existant) freind... its cause i was eating the banana and i didnt want to set it down cause the only place to put it was the table, and it was filled with my mom's important papers...

anyway... i did manage to pour my glass of milk b4 i dropped my banana, but it was starting to fall out of my mouth and in my haste to catch it i set the glass down and it must have been slanted cause itspilled all over the table

u heard correctly, all over the table, filled with the important papers that i didnt want to get banana on... every thing was soaked... it was about that time that i started to feel really bad andthat nothing could possibly go right that day...

later talking to my one friend, and i found out that they tried to kill themself on friday night...

and when i heard this i felt really shitty, and it realy brought me down...
not for any real reason, just for what might have been... i didnt want to get a call for mutural friends and have them b all like "ya... they're dead... they killed themself the other night"
cause then i'd be really sad cause this is one of my better freinds, and i would have cried... i dont gry over much, but i would lock myself in my room with darkness as my only friend, and cry. for maybe a week, then i'd b pissy at everything for months afterward, and if anyone joked about suiside i'd probibly get pissed at them. maybe not yel and scream and cuss pissed, but i'd make it ver clear that it wouldnt b a subject to have around me

to put this into perspective for u guys think about if ur little brother died... not the one u use as a punching bag, one that u accually love, one that u would do anything for, one thatmeans more to u than u do... thats how my friend is to me

anuyway... u have to give ashout out to my friend isabel... i was checking fb and i saw a comment she made and it really made me laugh.. it was one of those question things, it wa what would u say if (incert name) named their child after u" and she put "that boy is gonna get picked on alot" and i just burst out laughing, something that i do about as much as i drink eggnog.. no morethan a few times a year if im lucky

anyway.. and jon gets a shout out for showing me this awesome band called hollywood undead... omg they r great

anyway.. that was my day... c yall tomarrow

thought of the day

"when sarrow floods in,

i will b ur levi

and it will all b over soon"

saturday--11/28/09--11:46pm

hey there kids...
this'll b a short one cause i have a headache and i'm kinda tired

anyway... so today accually wasnt that bad of a day...

the really short version is i went to my gradma's house for thanksgiving...

the exteded versoin is that i pretty much just ate (which was fucking delicious) and then played vid games with my cousins..

omg the food was awesome... (i apologize in advanced if i make u hungry from listing everything we had :/ lol)

we had...

turkey, that was a bit dry but it could have been that i didnt put any gravy on it

mashed potatoes, not the instant shit... real potatoes, mashed and cooked

obviously we had gravey

this stuffing stuff that my aunt brought, with(out) nuts cause its sposed to have nuts but my one sister in law is crazy alergic to tree nuts (idk if u guys know this but "with(out)" is sposed to b like "with/without" just so u guys dont get confused)

this marshmellow stuff... again, with(out) nuts

green bean casarole... u have to have tried green bean casarole... it's fucking delicious

meatloaf

this jello cake shit that my one aunt makes every time... holy fuck... it is probibly the best shit i've ever had.. and i've had alot of shit

we had sweet potatoes, but i'm not a huge fan of sweet potatoes.. probibly cause i helped my mom make then one year and tho guys r sposed to like squishy things in their hand or some shit like that, i just didnt like it... all the shit sticking to my hands, and my being a mini clean freak when it comes to my hands and shit, it mixed about as well as oil and water

there was this pasta shit i didnt try

and of course there was pumkin pie

and cocnut cream pie

and cheese cake

omg it was delicious...

anyway... all i really did there was eat, as i sed, play washers with my 3 cousins, then pool with my cuz joe, i played a game called apples to apples with a bunch of ppl, and then spent a while playing video games with my cousins.

i came home wached forest gump on tv and came up to my room and got on my comp

and thus was my day.

i'm feeling like a bit of a change today... i think i'm gonna see how many ppl r accualy going to read this and accually respond... i thik that i'll try out a question of the day thing for u guys to answer in the comments... dont think u have to sign up for this thing to comment... i'm pretty sure that i have it set up to where u can just comment. now idt i'll have the question of the day every day... i'll never b able to think of all those questions.. especially if no one is gonna answer them

anyway.. question of the day... what is ur favorite thanksgiving day food, or if u dont have thankgiving, whats ur favorite food in general?

and now for the thought ot the day

thought of the day

" 'every saint has a past, every

sinner has a future

so u know what keeps me hanging around

you cant keep a good man down'

maybe thats y i'm so down all the time :/ "

friday--11/27/09--12:57am

ya.. wanna know what i did today?

stupid question, y else would u be reading this...

well nothing happened today... video games and nothing

i was going to go to my aunts house for thanksgiving today but i desided notto cause it would have upset my mom, and as much as i would love to see that part of the family, my mom is more important to me

ur probibly waiting for me to tell u all about what the fuck im talking about "that part of the family"

well i'm sorry but ur gonna b disapointed...

ya thats right, i dont want to tell u... sorry

mostly cause idk what the fuck the story really is... all i know is it involves my mom, and grandma on one side of this "great rift" and my aunt on the other... it's really just family bullshit

so ya thats my day... exciting i know

well its 1:05 and i really should b getting to bed... i have an exciting day of glutuny ahead of me

thought of the day

"it's sad to know

death will be

the only glue"

thursday--11/26/09--11:32 (HAPPY TURKEY DAY!!!)

hey there kids... happy thanksgiving, or turkey day, or pointless holliday, or "women's version of hell"



ugg to all holidays.. thats what i say, but thats cause im a grouch and a scrooge, i think that some of them r ok, some started ok, then just went to shit... i may post something about that on a dicfferent blog i have, one for rants and shit... idk



but anyway.. on to my day...



basicly i woke up and was greeted by rusty taking up the whole foot of my bed :/



crazy damn cat..



whatever tho.. i got up and the work started..."can u bring this to the car?".."can u bring this to the garrage?".."can u do this?".."can u do that"



then about 2 or so i went to my sister's apartment to help her move.. it accually wasnt that bad... we got everything in 1 trip



after that my dad took me and bob to steak n' shake for dinner... it was delicious :)



tho the whole time driving i was turning the dial forthe radio and bob was all like i'm driving.. i get to listen to what i want... and tho i cant drive yet i feel the car we used is pretty much mine, mostly cause bob has a different car that he calls his, and i let him choose the station for the most part in there...

but he kept emphisizing quotes around the green peice of shit station wagon when he calls it mine.. and then he tries to pretend like he has more claim over it than me and i'm pretty much like "well shit... let me have fucking something"



i felt like shit after that... like i got really sad, and kinda pissy, and real discouraged

kinda like telling a 5 year old kid that santa's a lie



it was like "dude, u have ur own damn car that u have claimed as ur own and this was the only thing that i was clinging to, kinda like as long as i have a car i can drive".. and he took it away



but thats enough wallowing in my pity... i then got home and he demanded to get on my comp.. claimed i owed him time on my comp cause i played an x-box, that he's barrowing from a friend... o played for like 5-6 hours.. sounds lke a long time... but he then played for like 5-6 hours and he has been playing for like a damn week or 2 straight... he's been giving me crap for a fw days now... i let him on mostly to shut his face up.. i let him on for an hour and he takes an hour and half...

kinda blames it on his girlfriend... b4 he got on i was on for a few minutes...

i was talking to her cause she was my friend b4 she was bob's gf, i figured i could talk to my friend, anyway i asked her to remeind him when it was 9:00 and to have him get of by then

he sed that he didnt get off at 9 cause she didnt remind him til like 9:20.. idk if this is true or not, and i really dont care... i told him that he was to get off at 9... it's not my fault he cant tell time

anyway.. about 10 i got on my comp... end day

i'm too damn tired for a quote of the day today... sorry kids.. maybe tomarrow

wednsday--11/25/09--12:19am

hey there guys...

how u doing?

i have no idea y the hell accually say that, it's not like the comp is gonna b like "everyone's doing great there, buddy.. hoo hoo" (sed in a micky mouse voice)

whatever... anyway.. so today was quite a day. it dosnt sound to eventful but it was great...

what happened is i woke up about 9ish, played the x-box 360 that bob is barrowing from a friend til abotu 3, watched bob play for a few hours then we had to go to my Gr. H cause it's her birthday today, we stayed for a bit and i played war with them

random side note... that game was accually a great metiphore for my life... after the first round of cards, like there was 4 of us playing, after we put down out 13 cards, i had won 1 time.. i had 4 cards, looked like i was going to loose, the only thing i had of note was the ace and a king... i ended up winning the game

it seems that life makes me apear to b loosing, but all i have to help me r my friends and my optimism (my "ace[friends] and king[optimism]") but suddenly with no warning i end up winning, all thanks to them

but ya.. anyway... so after we left gr.h's house we went to my cousin's aprt for my cool cuz's surprise b-day party (btw... since it is past midnight and is techniquely thursday happy birthday cool cuz i hope it turns out to b a really sweet 16 C: )

anyhoo... so ya, the partywas alot mor efun than i thought it would b.. i thou8ght it would b a bunch of teenaged girls being.. well teenaged girls
i think i'd rather b in a group of just guys.. at least all they really do is tell perverted jokes, swear alot and stupid shit girls just tend to scream, be hyper as hell, and just general annoying but accually it went really well...
there was just 3 other teen grils there, along with my cool cuz's sister and mom, and bob and myself
it was alot of fun... everyone but me pretty much played twister (i have a spine, hence i cant play lol) and then everyone pretty much joined in on "pin the tail on the donkey"
and then some kid was trying to start drama with my cuz so bob just gave it too this kid... i must admit, if there is one thing bob is fucking amazing at it's bitchin ppl out... now he didnt go full out on this kid cause he didnt really care, but it was his cuz and his frined that ghe kid was messin with so he did give it too the kid// one of my favorite parts "do u wanna know a nother word for "cunt"?...... "brandi" "
i think that one got 'er lol

anyway.. ya it was alot of fun

and of course as always, i came home and got on my comp...

i was seriously considdering just leaving it off and just doing all this tomarrow but then i'm like "na... it's not fair to the 5 or so ppl who accually read this to just leave them with nothing"
so i got on

shit... my mom dad and bob will b getting up in 2 hours to go shopping (well bob thinks he's just going to stay up those 2 hours but idk if he will)

well i'll c yall tomarrow

also, thanks cool cuz for the thought of the day

thought of the day

"it feels like im taking a shit upside-down"

(said while playing twister)

tuesday--11/24/09-- 12:02am

hey guys... how u all doin?

anyway.. ya.. not much accually happened today.. just went to ecc to hang with friends, chilled with friends, went home, delivered bread to ppl, came home got on comp

shit that was a short one... well whatever... i guess i'll c u all tomarrow
maybe i'll accually get some sleep tonight..... probibly not

lol

thought of the day

"Statistics are like a bikini.

What they reveal is suggestive

but what they conceal is vital"

~Aaron Levenstein~

monday--11/23/09--1:11am

hey there kids... again, this is gonna b quick cause not much happened today

went to school. went to music class, i'm pretty sure that i failed that project, i guess i'll have to make up for it in the paper

anyway...came home, talked to friends online, took a shower at 11:30 pm instead of the morning like i usually do...

thats gonna rain hell on my fro tomarrow, the damn thing'll b flatter than a pancake but o well.. i'll just fluff it out b4 i head to ecc

and yes.. i did just say "fluff out"

sorry guys... i'm too damn tired to think of a thought of the day for today

i'll see about givign u a bonus quote tomarrow

by the way.. happy thanksgiving to everyone, unless u dont celebrate thanksgiving, then just happy week to u ppl (lol)

anyway.. i'll c u kids tomarrow

i hope u all sleep well tonight :)

sunday--11/22/09--12:24am

this is gonna b anoyther quick one cause i want to sleep...

this moring.. awesome
this after noon... not so awesome

ok.. heres how it went down...

i woke up at about 8 30... no parents, figured they went to church, didnt see them all morning, which was pretty cool

at about 1:30 me and bob left so he could take me to school and he could go hang with friends or something.. idk

play starts at 2... bob desides he wants cigaretes, so we stop 3 different places to get his damn cigeretes, and i'm damn near late fro the play... i got there AT 2...
no 1 59, no 2 01.. 2 pm
i didnt have time to buy a ticket (which idt really mattered cause it would have been free anyway) but i had to take my seat as they were dimming the lights (for u non-theatre goers out there, that is the "shut up and get in ur seats, the play is starting" signal) anyway... funny ass play... couldnt have cast it better myself

anyway... play was over at 4:30-ish... on to strike (one of my favorite things ever)

again i shall adress all non theatre ppl... striking the set is basicly u take down the set and start on the next one... it is very important for acters and techies alike. (techie = technitian... anyone who isnt an actor or the director pretty much) it acts as a sence of closure.. like "yes this is really done and over with".

anyway... i gotz to use a hammer... i'm satisfied.

its after strike that shit started going downhill...

it ended about 6:30-ish and so i called bob who had my mom's cell phone and he didnt answer... i left a message anf waited outside
it was about 7, when weveryone had left, that i remembered that sometimes that phone desides that it wont say u got the message for a day or 2
not wanting to b stuck there all night, i went looking for a phone i can use.
on this quest for a phone i found a security guard and he let me use the phone in the guard shed, that was 7 30 when i called

he sed that he was almost done with want he was doing and he would get me when he was done...i was waiting til 8 30 when the guard came back making his rounds of the campus... asked if i wanted to call my brother again, i was like "sure"

bob sed that he hadnt even left his friends house yet and would b done in about 5 mins, and that he'd b there in 20

i was going to walk down to where bob would b stoping to pick me up cause i had nothing better to do... but i started talking to the security guard, steve was his name... really cool guy he talked about his wife and how shes really tiny but she scares the shit outta him (lol)
he sed his daughter and him took karate together, both got their black belt, and he's still scared of his wife (again lol)

he was talking about how he's been sokin since he was 10 (so like 40 years) and how his dad had him light his cigerettes when he was like 4, his dad thought it was cute or something

and he sed that i should try to get a job at school as a security guard... there u dont have to b certified or nothing

but anyway... i found out that i can make some good money there... it's pretty much sign up, spend a da y in a class, watch a film (cause u cant b anything with out a film involved) and they give u the uniform and u start.

anyway.. after i finally got home and saw that a friend had called at 2 10.. ya thats right.. i just missed her... o well, i'll call her tomarrow.. errr.. i mewan later today :/

well shit... it's freaking 1 37 now so i think im gonna go to bed... cya tomarrow

thought of the day
"i went into the service at 17
got out at 20
got married at 21
which one do u think i should have waited on"

(quote from steve)

saturday--11/21/09--1:09am

shit...

well as u have probibly guessed it's after 1 so im gonna try to make this go fast so i can sleep (oh, much needed sleep)

anyway.. a pretty action packed day today... not so much when explaining, but is was while i was livin it...

my day started at 9am... i woke up to zoe, (notrusty for once) sleeping on my bed...
but where as rusty lays by my feet zoe had placed herself right by my arm.. so i couldnt put it down with out hitting her

but of course she didnt care... she was comfy, thats what matters (lol)

anyway... i then had to get up anyway cause i had to help at the boy scout's annual food drive.. i was movin boxes of cans... not fun at all

**interesting side note... isnt it ironic that we give the poor so many canned food items but no can openers?... just a thought**

anyway. back to story... at about noon-30 is when the cans stoped and by 2:30 i was leaveing... but not for home... to my grandma's house, where i gotto put ornimants on her tree... wasnt as bad as it could have been, so im glad about that...

after that, i "went to church" which really consisted of me and bob sitting in the car.. him on the phone, me just kinda resting.. sorta but not really trying to sleep

i camr home, and, u guessed it, got on my comp.. and here i have stayed until... damn ... freakin' 1:42... i need to b getting to bed, so a quick thought f the day...

thought of the day
"heaven watches from a distance
hell charges forward.
for the last month we gave our enemies heaven...
now, we give them Hell!"

friday--11/20/09--1:00am

ok.. it's 1 and i'm tired as hell... this'll b a really fast one

ok.. i went to school, and vinnie wasnt in the workshop... i checked ever 30 mins or so... at 8 30, 9, and 9 30.. i had class at 10 30 and didnt think that i could do much in 30 mins, so at 10 i didnt check...

at 130 i was sposed to meet a friend in the cafe but he didnt show, so i ended up waiting til like 4 or so, then i headed to a place called geek out... basicly a gamers paradice

anyway, stayed there til about 7, then i came home

i got on my comp and started talking to friends ever since

[timestamp--1:39am]

thought of the day
"u = awesome. period"

thursday--11/19/09--12:06

first of all i have to say this... HAPPY B-DAY SIS!! way to b 19?.. hell idk anymore :)

i have a lot of stuff to cover but not that much time to say it in...

i have school tomarrow and have to go to bed like 5 mins ago :/

anyway,, ya... so this morning i wake up at about 9, i have to take the cats to the vet's today... we have 3 cats and 2 cat carriers... lucky rusty, he gets to go tomarrow...i didnt get home until about 2 30... and the only reason we did come home is cause we had cold stuff in the car from going to wallmart and aldi's and stuff along with goingto the vet's

anyway, we stayed just long enough to put that away and then we were off to the hospital... i got a new nephew this morning... atabout 1:45ish i got a new nephew whelend, or something like that.. he's pretty cute even if i have to say so myself

*says "i soot shit w/ a shotgun" 10 times to reestabish his manlyness*
(lol)

anyway.. so i then went home at about 7pm ish and got on my comp and here i stay

holy shit... it only took me 10 mins to write this one... it really doesnt take that long when i dont keep getting distracted
lol

well cya tomarrow :)

thought of the day
"happy b-day to u
happy b-day to u
happy b-day to sis and wheleeeeeeen...
happy b-day to youuuuuu"

[lol.. had to b done :) ]

wednsday--11/18/09--12 03pm

hey there kids... this is another one of those "idk how to classify this day" kinda days...

well firstly... i didnt hit the sack until like 2 or 2 30 in the morning

i had to finish that damn paper, which i didnt get done
then i didnt get that much sleep, on account of me going to bed at 230

anyway.. i didnt do nothing on that damn paper

i went to school and basicly slept the day away .. and i know that it soulds fucking awesome, but lotwhen u sleep thru working on a paper due that day, or thru the class it's due in, and have ur partner b disapointed in u..(cue sad face)

well anyway... after that, i ate dinner, i went to my room and got on the comp til now

hell of a day, i know

well anyway.. it's fucking 2am... again....
shit this is gonna suck when this all catches up to me

shit... just so u knwo the time frame i'm working here... the time in the title is when i started this damn thing... it's 206 am now

yay for getting distracted!!

anyway...

thought of the day
"i'm the jaugernaut, bitch!!
(thats probibly more funny to me than u)
lol"

tuesday--11/17/09--12:35am

hey guys, sorry for the late post.

today is gonna have to b another quicky cause i have shit i have to do, and it will probibly take all night

anyway.. on to my day...

ya,, i woke up and found that rusty desided that it would b awesome to throw up on my rug... like 6 small piles right were i almost had to step in it to get to my comp and then one pile by my bed

anyway, i was on the comp for a while then i went to help my grandma with going thru old shit from her other house (i'll call this one "gr.d" for "grandma (dad)" cause she's my dad's mom)

anyway.. after that i got on my comp and have stayed here since

as an added bonus i'll give u a bit of future with today's past...

ya, u know how u sed i have shit to do... well that "shit" i talked about is an eassy due tomarrow.. in just under 13 hours :/

thought of the day

"oh, burning fires in my eyes
please effect me not
as i try to finish
what must b done"

monday--11/16/09--11:53pm

hey there guys

i'm not gonna do the whole build up thing cause i'm starting this thing kinda late anyways...

to b honest, not much really happened today, i went to school, shilled with r and r, and then came home and got online

tho, one thing of note, i was talking to my friend today and it made me feel better knowing that she was doing better than yesterday, hell, she almsost seemed happy

well thats really al that happened to me today

cya'll tomarrow :)

sunday--11/15/09--11:11pm

henh... well its 11 11... i know what i wish... good a time as any to start this thing

i damn near wentto bed with out postng cause i was getting tired but then i was like "ya know what? the 3 or 4 ppl who accually read this deserve something, even if it is a quick bullshit "yup i woke up today"

but please keep in mind that there may b some days that i get home at like 9 or 10 and i'm just like "fuck this..." *sleep* and not even get on my comp that day, those, i'm sorry to say, u'll have to do with out my blog for that day, but i'll fill u in on the next post

anyway.. onto today's post

the only thing of note is rusty is looking better, i dont think he likes me all the way yet but he's gettign there :)

and the only other thing of note today is not as positive... my one friend (who i shall call sue) i think is mad at me, or at least i failed at trying to cheer her up

i just kinda feel like i've failed her, i mean i'm the one she turns to to feel better and i cant help her, idk if she has anyone else who really listens to her anymore most ppl r just like "o, thats just sue having problems again"

bah, but thats just me complaining... i'm not gonna waste ur time reading my complaints.. if u really want to read my troubles i have a blog for that called "whats eating the shallow grave" or something like that

well thats all the important stuff that i did today, i'll cya tomarrow

thought of the day
"but seldomn do these words ring true
when i'm constantly failing you"

saturday--11/14/09--11:42pm

i feel like a horrorable person today...

i think i'm responcible for hurting my cat, rusty

what happened is he was laying on my bed and it was like at 4am,i woke up cause i'm guessing i accidentally kicked him, nothing to out of the norm, he does that all the time... well when i went to pick him up to put him on the floor his claw got stuck on my blanket, like it seems to do alot, and while i was trying to free him from the blanket he kinda squirmed out of my arm and onto the floor, pulling on his one leg.. and today, he wasnt doing the 3 legged walk thing like alot of animals seem to do, but he was putting his paw down and then it looked like he didnt like it there and he'd move it again to a different place and he seemed to.... idk, almost limp a bit... like he would walk quicker on his one leg so he wouldnt have to b on it so long and i felt rteally crappy cause he was like all scared of me all day today

but i am talking to ann right now and she thinks that he'll b fine, so that makes me feel a little bit better about it :) [thanks kid]

anyway... after that, i went back to sleep, woke up about 9, ate, swept some stuff, then i got to listen to my grandma (i'll call her "gr.h") because she is in one of her "nobody loves me" moods, so i'm probibly gponna have to go visit and play cards tomarrow which is gonna suck... i already wasted one day, i dont want to waste another playing cards

anyway, the oven wasnt that bad to move... between me, dad and the woman's dad we got it on the trailer and home i wentto church, and got online.. end day

and leave it to bob to turn a decent day inot onethat i'm kinda pised off in fucking 15 mins... o well it's fuckin 20 after 1, i really should go to bed

i'll c y'all tomarrow