sasturday -- 12/19/09 -- 12:57 am

fuck i have to start doing these things sooner or i'll neve sleep :/

i'm gonna have to make this a quick one, tho there is alot to talk about

it was a pretty fun day, anda shtty day, all wrapped up in one

"but shallow grave, how can this b??"

o, my non existant, over questioning friend, i'll tell u, dont u worry

well it started when i went to a x-mas party almost spesificly for my nephew and his family, cause they r from new hampture... it was nice 'cause doc's kid saw me... and when he did he pointed at me and waved.. kinda like "i remember you"(sed with a hint of excitment)
and by the end of the night my other nephew didnt look at me like i had a second head that was green wiht purple poka dots.. so i consider that an improvment... but who knows.. with a bit of luck by the time i see him again he'll wonder who the hell i am again

but.. i left my grandma's with a bad taste in my mouth... probibly cause during the night doc asked me my "have u ever shot someone?" question...

~~ since i'm sure u guys dont really know what i'm talking about, or at very least, may not, i'll tell u
basicly u should never ask a cop, or a soldiar "have u ever shot someone?" cause alot of them dont liek talking about it... for alot of them it willl stir old memories of them having to shoot someone, or maybe even of someone they were close to getting shot.. point being, dont ask it, they dont like talking about it~~

my question?... "when r u going to drive/ get a job/get a girlfriend" basidly anything that could be seen as a "u should have done this by now" kinda question... i'm pretty sure i posted something about that some other day... i'll probibly go back and check and if i didnt i'll add something right after this paragraph (or if anyone wants to save me the trouble if u remember me telling u about it just comment on this one)

so ya.. doc asked me when i was going to get my lisence, which is the one they usually pick, and so i was tellinghim about thinking about taking a semester off from college to work on getting my lisence
now i told him that i wasnt doing good in school anyway, so i was just wasting money going to school (i told him i was getting d's with a few c's but relly i failed everything i took this last semester, well i think i barely got by in prac, but the other 3 i just failed hard core, and that caused me to loose a friend, i'm pretty sure, but i dont want to think about that at all.

anyway.. and right b4 i accually left, like minutes b4 i did, ppl were asking me about a job.. so of course i turtled up and just kinda tried to get thru it as fast as i could

so pretty much for the rest of the night everything that used to b just a small "whatever" thing was then very irritating, and mad me more pissy, hence the bad mood i'm in now
or at least i really hope thats it, cause the alternitive is that it is one of these random bad moods i've been in lately... ever since july, i've been falling into these really bad moods, like i just hate the world when i get in those moods, i want to destroy something beautiful so that i can see ppl miserible, and the worst part is, i have no reason to b this angry.. it just kinda shows up, hangs around for a week or 2, then it slowly fades away

o... what did momentarily take my mind off today was i watched "nightmare b4 christmas" on tv
that made me smile for a bit :)

wow.. so much for this being a quick one

anyway, today's question is kinda a personal one, so if u dont want to answer the full question u cna just give me a yes or no answer...

QOTD: do u have a "have u ever shot someone" question, one that makes ur blood boil when someone asks it to u? if u do what is it? (if u feel like making it more fun for me when i read thru the comments feel free to say how it makes u feel, like when ppl ask me the questions i dont like i feel like stabbing something in the face, preferably whatever asked me)

i already gave my answer to the question above

sorry, i'm too tired to find a song ... accually, u know what?... the song is gonna b "this is halloween" it's from the movie, but when i have u look it up on ur own time, u can look up the movie or marelyn manson has a version thats pretty good

sorry... i am too tired to think of anything for the TOTD... sorry... if u have a good quote feel free to put it in the comments