sasturday -- 12/19/09 -- 12:57 am

fuck i have to start doing these things sooner or i'll neve sleep :/

i'm gonna have to make this a quick one, tho there is alot to talk about

it was a pretty fun day, anda shtty day, all wrapped up in one

"but shallow grave, how can this b??"

o, my non existant, over questioning friend, i'll tell u, dont u worry

well it started when i went to a x-mas party almost spesificly for my nephew and his family, cause they r from new hampture... it was nice 'cause doc's kid saw me... and when he did he pointed at me and waved.. kinda like "i remember you"(sed with a hint of excitment)
and by the end of the night my other nephew didnt look at me like i had a second head that was green wiht purple poka dots.. so i consider that an improvment... but who knows.. with a bit of luck by the time i see him again he'll wonder who the hell i am again

but.. i left my grandma's with a bad taste in my mouth... probibly cause during the night doc asked me my "have u ever shot someone?" question...

~~ since i'm sure u guys dont really know what i'm talking about, or at very least, may not, i'll tell u
basicly u should never ask a cop, or a soldiar "have u ever shot someone?" cause alot of them dont liek talking about it... for alot of them it willl stir old memories of them having to shoot someone, or maybe even of someone they were close to getting shot.. point being, dont ask it, they dont like talking about it~~

my question?... "when r u going to drive/ get a job/get a girlfriend" basidly anything that could be seen as a "u should have done this by now" kinda question... i'm pretty sure i posted something about that some other day... i'll probibly go back and check and if i didnt i'll add something right after this paragraph (or if anyone wants to save me the trouble if u remember me telling u about it just comment on this one)

so ya.. doc asked me when i was going to get my lisence, which is the one they usually pick, and so i was tellinghim about thinking about taking a semester off from college to work on getting my lisence
now i told him that i wasnt doing good in school anyway, so i was just wasting money going to school (i told him i was getting d's with a few c's but relly i failed everything i took this last semester, well i think i barely got by in prac, but the other 3 i just failed hard core, and that caused me to loose a friend, i'm pretty sure, but i dont want to think about that at all.

anyway.. and right b4 i accually left, like minutes b4 i did, ppl were asking me about a job.. so of course i turtled up and just kinda tried to get thru it as fast as i could

so pretty much for the rest of the night everything that used to b just a small "whatever" thing was then very irritating, and mad me more pissy, hence the bad mood i'm in now
or at least i really hope thats it, cause the alternitive is that it is one of these random bad moods i've been in lately... ever since july, i've been falling into these really bad moods, like i just hate the world when i get in those moods, i want to destroy something beautiful so that i can see ppl miserible, and the worst part is, i have no reason to b this angry.. it just kinda shows up, hangs around for a week or 2, then it slowly fades away

o... what did momentarily take my mind off today was i watched "nightmare b4 christmas" on tv
that made me smile for a bit :)

wow.. so much for this being a quick one

anyway, today's question is kinda a personal one, so if u dont want to answer the full question u cna just give me a yes or no answer...

QOTD: do u have a "have u ever shot someone" question, one that makes ur blood boil when someone asks it to u? if u do what is it? (if u feel like making it more fun for me when i read thru the comments feel free to say how it makes u feel, like when ppl ask me the questions i dont like i feel like stabbing something in the face, preferably whatever asked me)

i already gave my answer to the question above

sorry, i'm too tired to find a song ... accually, u know what?... the song is gonna b "this is halloween" it's from the movie, but when i have u look it up on ur own time, u can look up the movie or marelyn manson has a version thats pretty good

sorry... i am too tired to think of anything for the TOTD... sorry... if u have a good quote feel free to put it in the comments

friday -- 12/18/09 -- 1:15am

today was pretty dull...

the highlight of my day was watching major payne..

ya.. the best part of my day was a movie :/

o well
at least it was a funny as hell movie

o... ya, thats my suggestion to everyone

if u havent seen that movie u should

anyway... i played games and did a little bit of work today...

tomarrow i'm going to a x-mas party, should b pretty fun
but we'll see

anyway, i didnt accually get onm my comp until damn near 12. i was playing magic with bob

well thats about it...

SOTD: sound of silence by simon and garfunkel
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BvsX03LOMhI

it's just a beautiful song.. definately an oldie but goodie :)

QOTD: have u ever listened to the sound of silence b4? if u have tell me about it

MAOTD: i've done so lots of times... if i'm in a particularly bad mood i will just kinda lay in the dark and just let the nothingness surround me.. it is really calming for me.. what about u guys?

thought of the day

"In that one shining moment of glory

we made our children cry in horror

our peers cry in fear

and our elders cry because we're leading the country!"

thursday -- 12/17/09 -- 11:29

wow what a day...

i got up, ate breakfast, then it was off to my brother's house to see my nephews.. all 3 of them

thats right.. i went to doc's house and saw all 3 nephews

it was pretty awesome

tho i felt kinda happy and kinda sad...
doc's kid said bye to me when i left, or at least said it the best he could but, he didnt say bye to my mom, and i could tell that hurt her

cause my sister in law told her kid my name, but didnt make any effort to say "this is grandma"

but anyway.. after that i got to to my grandma's house, who was in a depressed mood.. so thats always fun

i came home and ate supper (mmm to spicey tuna and noodles :P--> :b lol)
then i went to call sue, cause i havent talked to her in a while.. didnt turn out as i had hoped :/

anyway.. after that i got on my comp and here i am still

ok.. song of the day is imagine by john lennon
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VM0Z75KEd_o

i picked this song cause i heard it on the radio and was like "that would b nice if it were true" and it's just a good song by a great songwiter

anyway.. question of the day... what do u imagine the world was like? what would b ur perfect world?

MAOTD: tbh, i dont give a shit about the rest of the planet, my perfect world would b all my closest friends being walking distance from me :)

thought of the day
"the powerful play goes on
and u may contribute a verse.
what will ue verse b?"
from the movie "dead poet's society"

wednsday -- 12/16/09 -- 11:43pm

ya... again. nothing that exciting



well ok, maybe there was a few things



like i held my nephew for the first time, he's getting really big for just being a month old,

and my sister came in from college today, i saw her

and my brother came in from new hampture to visit for christmas with his wife, witch honestly surprized me since she pregnant and due in spring some time (i didnt think she'd accually fly here) anyway.. ya, thats all thats up with me

(cue the everyday stuff)

SOTD: dig up her bones by the misfits
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w3dAl0fyEp4

i just really like this song :)


QOTD: do u have family coming in for the holidays, or r u the family coming in for the holidays?

thought of the day

"If u close ur mind

and close ur heart

to thngs that r different,

then u close any chance of learning…

prefer to keep my mind open...

so i can stop trying to learn

who ppl think i can b

and start learning

i can b everything i want to b”

tuesday -- 12/15/09 -- 1:21am

ok... short one for today

basicly i played video games all day

boring i know

but i also cleaned out my mom's van for tomarrow (i gbet to see my bro, his wife, and my nephew :))) <-- [ BIG smile] )

but ya,, thats pretty much it

o.. i also delivered bread today
and i drove at night for likethe 3rd time ever.. that was kinda exciting, if u compare it to vid games :/

anyway... so my song of the day is from the same guy as yesterday's... it's been stuck in my head all day, and it's a great song
SOTD: TKO on Valintine's Day by myownconviction http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v9_N_9CXJTY

QOTD: refering to the SOTD, who r u? like what animal r u, if any?

my answer to the question of the day is accually the respoce to the video... so u'll have to check out the video to see my answer

just so u know, the video is 7:53 long video

anyway...

thought of the day

"memories r nice

until they betray u

and make u remember the failures in life"

monday -- 12/14/09 -- 12am

hey there

ya,, it's been a nothing day...

i folded clothes, wached a christmas movie (it was the christmas card for those of u who care)
o, and i watched the last half of "21" it is a good movie

i mopped the bathroom floor, and thats pretty much it

boring day i know

anyway... song of the day is a song called "city of fallen angels" by a guy on youtube... his account name is "my own conviction".. it's a great song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1pcyqw_YpT8&feature=channel

QOTD: what is a movie u like alot? (i'm not gonna put u thru the trouble of trying to pick ur fave movie... too much work involved lol)

MAOTD: hmmm... i cant even pick one that i liek alot... there is so many

lol

thought of the day

(it accually is from the SOTD)

"Im found left here

lost without guidance

with so much uncertainty

Atlantis is burning

right before my eyes

as I pour down the gasoline

My mind is a gutter

cluttered with broken bones

and screaming wounded souls

The angels are falling tonight

right before my eyes

for to the Devil I have sold"

sunday -- 12/13/09 -- 11:35 pm

ya.. so it was a "clean til u bleed" day again... i totally thought it would b over with the raising of the christmas tree
i was wrong

ya, u wanna know the jobs i hd today?

well after i got up at 10 i was on my comp til 10 30, when my mom was all like "come down here and clean or u loose the internet

seeing as my meager existance revolves around the internet, i didnt weantto chance it

so going downstairs i gotto clean the bathroom then i ate breakfast/lunch and swept the steps... i then got to scrub the walls in the stairs to get rid of the fingerprints.. ya, thats right... i had to take a sponge, and a bucket of water and scrub the stairway walls... then i got to scrub the steps :/

it wasnt that hard of a job.. just a factory kinda job.. u know.. like the same thing over and over... it gets really monotnous really fast... and the worst part is i somehow end up with the job every year... probibly cause my mom knows i'll accually do it, and not complain.. well not too much
lol

anyway... i did get a chance to talk to sue today, which was nice... but it was only for like 10 mins, and i was kinda bummed about that.. i havent been able to talk to her that much cause of all the cleaning i've had to do... but hopefully that will change soon...

i'm kinda excited, i get to see my fave nephew in liek 3 days :)

idk if ur sposed to have a fave neice/nephew, but i do
lol

but ya... i cant wait to see him

ok.. i'm gonna try something new today, i want to know if u like the idea or not

introducing... (incert drum roll)

the song of the day...

this could b a song that describes my day, or one thats stuck in my head, or one that i just like

SOTD: ever after happily http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AHvol-aeeYo&feature=fvw

it's by a man named jay brannon, and it is just a really good song

QOTD: ... u know what? how about instead ofa question i make a request...

i'd like u to find a link to one of ur favorite songs.

i want to know the kinda stuff u like, and i always enjoy expanding my musical library :)

o.. b4 the thought of the day, i have come to believe that there is only about 2 ppl who read this thing everyday... if u feel like it, link this to ur friends if u think they would like it, i'd love to accually have ppl read these things.. well more than just like 2 of u

also.. cant wait...3 days til my blood family comes here, 22 until part my other family does, too bad i cant have all of them here for christmas... o well.. one is good enough for me :)

thought of the day

"the only thing worse

than a young pessimist,

is an old optimist"

~~ i believe that was mark twain who sed that~~