friday -- 1/1/10 -- 1:10 am

well it was pretty much yet another nothing day

but i did get my net back., so thats a plus

anyway.. all that happened is i went to my aunts house for a bonfire cause my sister is in from south dakota and college

cept it snowed today and tho not much, was apparently enough to thrwart our fire
so we just played pool instead...
first we played cut throat, tho there was me, my aunt and uncle, my sister and my couzen (5 ppl all together)
we played with 3 ppl, the the winner would play the next 2
then my uncle and i played 9 ball, and i didnt do too bad for my first time
i didnt loose either game
now i didnt loose either game but i only won one, and that was after scott did all the work
the other one scott lost, i didnt win

o.. b4 i forget... i'm mentioning my cool cuz... who i'll call cool cuz, just cause thats something i'll accully remember lol

lol hey there cool cuz!! :D

anyway.. after i came home i got online after making me something to eat, and here i am... 3 30 in the morning still doing this thing

well i do feel kinda good about myself/ kinda crappy...
my brother came in my room and told me these 3 pointless stories, one was just long and made to bore the person, the other was short and had a dumb ending, and the other didnt have an ending.. but when i asked how come he told them to me he sed that they had 2 purposes... the first was that i did laugh after each one... tho it was more of a "this is so stupid" kinda laugh, but i laughed all the same, and he sed "they made u happy, even if it was just for a little bit, u were still happy when u were laughing" so to this i had to agree
then he sed that he was surprized i accuall sat and listened to all of them all the way through... and that they were really just to take his mind off his bad day, so he thanked me for that and i accually felt a genuine care for bob.. like i accually cared about him,, wich doesnt happen often

i felt kinda crappy cause i have this weird thing where i seem to kinda copy the emotions around me.. i dont even try to, it just kinda happens.. and i think i was copying bob's bad mood a bit

but anyway... i'm just kinda bullshit the shit of the day today, cause it's freaking aqlmost 4am and i still have a few things i wantto do b4 i go to bed...

so link of the day is a song by a group called across from marty.. its a really sad song but one i really like.. it's called stuck in the mud

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ASZLIQw5hFE

the question of the day is gonna b kind of a personal one... do u have any regrets, anything u wish u could redo

for me, i have alot of things i wish to god i could do over, or just not do alltogether
like when i accidentaly burned down a shed of antiques, or alot of things i have sed while tired, or just erupted from my mouth when i was angry

thought of the day

"it feels like i have a hole in my cheek"

[quoted from cool cuz]