it's been a crappy day for me... i'm in a bad mood
it all started this morning, when i had to wake up at 9am..ya,, i didnt get to bed until like 3 30 or 4 and my dad's waking me up at 9am, but of course i couldnt tell him that i didnt go to sleep tilk like 4 cause he'd throw a fucking coniption fit
anyway.. i get downstairs after trying to sleep in for an extra 30-45 mins, and while i'm folding clothes, my dad starts talking about my lack of a job and lisence... thats what made me angry
then when he asked what the problem was and i gave my costomary "idk" he suggested maybe i need to see a psychitrist, a head doctor... thats when i got pissed
i acculy talked back to my dad this morning
now u may think " o, so u talked back to ur dad, so does everyone else"
ya,, but one thing u'd b forgetting... I'm not "everyone else"
i never talk back to my dad... not cause i'm a good person... hell no.. me a "nice person" hardly.. i put up a good face but if u boil it all down i'm not a good person, not at all, i'm an angry, hatefull person, who wishes devistation on everything i dont like
i write to keep myself kinda sane... if it wasnt for my writing i'd act as crazy as i really am, and i'd be as alone as i feel
anyway...
i dont talk back to my dad cause i dont wanna sit there for another god damned hour while he goes over the same points over and over and over again, and i hate my dad... not "strongly dislike".. no...hate
anyway,,, so thats what put me in a bad mood, then ppl gtting pissy when ther was nothing left to clean downstairs and i layed down in the recliner we have
anyway,,, ya, so my sister had a party which is y we had to clean in the first place, but i was in such a pissy mood, i didnt want to do anything but b a damn hermit
so basicly i have spent the last 6-6.5 hours in my room online
i went downstairs to say hi to my sister's russian friend cause she lived here for a few months during the summer, i figured i should at least say hi
and i went down when i thought everyone was gone so i could fix me something to eat
ok.. now the things that have made this day worth remembering...
i got to eat some butterball cookies for the first time in, like, shit,, it's been so long since i had butterball cookies i cant even remember when the lst time i had them was..
wel now it's easy,, "todday"
lol
anyway.. also, the writer for the elevator show became my friend on facebook today.. it would really make my day if we accually became friends and not just names on a list
anyway.. i have 2 songs of the day today, and they arent just good songs, they r songs that i heard today and they made me fell a little bit better today...
the first is let her be by the beatles then it's "hear you me" by jimmy eats world
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YBPFvp750sc&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=scLcUfhd2kY
and my question is do u like either song.. yes or no
my answer.. yes, i like both songs...
let her b is a soothing song to me and i love the beatles and it's easy to sing along to
and hear you me is just a beautifully writen song
thoughts of the day
(thats right,, i sed thoughts)
1) "may angels lead u in"
Good songs.
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