saturday -- 1/2/10 -- 9:44 pm

hey there, kids

so u wanna know about my day?

of course u do, y else would u be here...

anyway...

so i went to bed about 4am.. woke up about noon thirty

went to geek out cause they r closing soon as i sed, earlier in the year
the 4th is their last day open, so i'm gonna try to go as much as i can in the next 2 days, if for no other reason but to see pl there and hang out.

anyway.. i went to my grandma's house and while my mom refilled her medicine for the month i watched tv... and i saw willy wanka and the chocolate factory (the good one, with gene wilder in it) and apart of beerfest.. i also saw the end of flight of the navigator

anyway, i came home, ate some food and came upstrairs and i got online

and here i am

so.. shit of the day...

LOTD: the link of the day is a song by say anything called "hate everyone" it just explains my thoughts most onf the time =/
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0XHFKwwWXU8

QOTD: who is someone that u genuinely hate... if no one then who's someone u have a strong dislike for?

for me, i hate my dad.. i genuinely hate him.. i used to have a smidgen of respect for him as a human being but i have since gotten rid of it

thought of the day

"I guess that "everyone" includes me

And that's why I'm a humanist"

friday -- 1/1/10 -- 1:10 am

well it was pretty much yet another nothing day

but i did get my net back., so thats a plus

anyway.. all that happened is i went to my aunts house for a bonfire cause my sister is in from south dakota and college

cept it snowed today and tho not much, was apparently enough to thrwart our fire
so we just played pool instead...
first we played cut throat, tho there was me, my aunt and uncle, my sister and my couzen (5 ppl all together)
we played with 3 ppl, the the winner would play the next 2
then my uncle and i played 9 ball, and i didnt do too bad for my first time
i didnt loose either game
now i didnt loose either game but i only won one, and that was after scott did all the work
the other one scott lost, i didnt win

o.. b4 i forget... i'm mentioning my cool cuz... who i'll call cool cuz, just cause thats something i'll accully remember lol

lol hey there cool cuz!! :D

anyway.. after i came home i got online after making me something to eat, and here i am... 3 30 in the morning still doing this thing

well i do feel kinda good about myself/ kinda crappy...
my brother came in my room and told me these 3 pointless stories, one was just long and made to bore the person, the other was short and had a dumb ending, and the other didnt have an ending.. but when i asked how come he told them to me he sed that they had 2 purposes... the first was that i did laugh after each one... tho it was more of a "this is so stupid" kinda laugh, but i laughed all the same, and he sed "they made u happy, even if it was just for a little bit, u were still happy when u were laughing" so to this i had to agree
then he sed that he was surprized i accuall sat and listened to all of them all the way through... and that they were really just to take his mind off his bad day, so he thanked me for that and i accually felt a genuine care for bob.. like i accually cared about him,, wich doesnt happen often

i felt kinda crappy cause i have this weird thing where i seem to kinda copy the emotions around me.. i dont even try to, it just kinda happens.. and i think i was copying bob's bad mood a bit

but anyway... i'm just kinda bullshit the shit of the day today, cause it's freaking aqlmost 4am and i still have a few things i wantto do b4 i go to bed...

so link of the day is a song by a group called across from marty.. its a really sad song but one i really like.. it's called stuck in the mud

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ASZLIQw5hFE

the question of the day is gonna b kind of a personal one... do u have any regrets, anything u wish u could redo

for me, i have alot of things i wish to god i could do over, or just not do alltogether
like when i accidentaly burned down a shed of antiques, or alot of things i have sed while tired, or just erupted from my mouth when i was angry

thought of the day

"it feels like i have a hole in my cheek"

[quoted from cool cuz]

Thursday -- 12/31/09 -- 10:32pm -- HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYBODY!!!

Hey there… I had a pretty nothing day today… all I did was go to my grandma’s house and play games with her cause she was in one of her “nobody loves me” moods

I’m not gonna post any SOTD until I get my net back online

So anyway… good night, happy new years, hopefully I have internet by tomorrow

If nothing else since I’m typing this in Microsoft word I’m not gonna have as many spelling errors as I usually do
lol

Well have fun kids… till tomarrow

wednsday -- 12/30/09 -- 12:34am ~~ WOOT!! 50th post!!

yep... WOOT!!! post # 50.. thats half of 100, thats 1/10 of 1000, thats the square root of 1,000,000...

that means i'm almost at ONE MILLION!!!!!!

lol not likely

but if i accually stck to this for 1,000,000 posts i'll have u guys ask me to do something crazy or rediculous and i'll record myself doing that and i'll put the vid on youtube and link it to u all in the thought of the day for my 1,000,000th post, so start thinking now :)

anyway... my "today" is accually gonna start at about 4am last night...

at 4 or 4:30 am i was downstair chillin with a friend who practices wikka...
to b honest i dont know a damn thing about wikka..ism... (??) but i know that she had tarot cards and i had my fortune read 2 times

the first time it was pretty shitty...
it basicly sed that i have put up walls, and i want ppl to see the real me but i'm afraid to let ppl past the walls

it then sed that i was depressed, am depressed, and will be depressed and alone

the second time wasnt as bad...
it sed that i'd probibly end up depressed and alone, instead of saying there's no way of changnig it
anyway, so i went to bed at 6am... and got up at noon, and that wsa pretty much the highlight of my day.. o.. i did get new rugs in the living room, and i saw the truman show on tv and i talked to sue today... not for long, because she was tired but we got to talk which was pretty nice

anyway... now for ths SOTD...

link of the day #1 is accually a guy i'm subscribed to on youtube...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wmE9CeEltZg

LOTD#2 is drift away by dobie gray
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gr_eVcCAUXo

question of the day : what is the weirdest thing u have ever heard said?
if u want to add who sed it and all that fun stuff go ahead

thought of the day

"your father used to use a cock ring

it was really nice

made him last forever,

you might want to do the same someday"

[ direct quote said to chuck, from his mom]

tuesday -- 12/29/09 -- 10:45pm

hey there guys...

it's been a crappy day for me... i'm in a bad mood

it all started this morning, when i had to wake up at 9am..ya,, i didnt get to bed until like 3 30 or 4 and my dad's waking me up at 9am, but of course i couldnt tell him that i didnt go to sleep tilk like 4 cause he'd throw a fucking coniption fit

anyway.. i get downstairs after trying to sleep in for an extra 30-45 mins, and while i'm folding clothes, my dad starts talking about my lack of a job and lisence... thats what made me angry

then when he asked what the problem was and i gave my costomary "idk" he suggested maybe i need to see a psychitrist, a head doctor... thats when i got pissed

i acculy talked back to my dad this morning

now u may think " o, so u talked back to ur dad, so does everyone else"

ya,, but one thing u'd b forgetting... I'm not "everyone else"

i never talk back to my dad... not cause i'm a good person... hell no.. me a "nice person" hardly.. i put up a good face but if u boil it all down i'm not a good person, not at all, i'm an angry, hatefull person, who wishes devistation on everything i dont like
i write to keep myself kinda sane... if it wasnt for my writing i'd act as crazy as i really am, and i'd be as alone as i feel

anyway...
i dont talk back to my dad cause i dont wanna sit there for another god damned hour while he goes over the same points over and over and over again, and i hate my dad... not "strongly dislike".. no...hate

anyway,,, so thats what put me in a bad mood, then ppl gtting pissy when ther was nothing left to clean downstairs and i layed down in the recliner we have

anyway,,, ya, so my sister had a party which is y we had to clean in the first place, but i was in such a pissy mood, i didnt want to do anything but b a damn hermit

so basicly i have spent the last 6-6.5 hours in my room online

i went downstairs to say hi to my sister's russian friend cause she lived here for a few months during the summer, i figured i should at least say hi
and i went down when i thought everyone was gone so i could fix me something to eat

ok.. now the things that have made this day worth remembering...
i got to eat some butterball cookies for the first time in, like, shit,, it's been so long since i had butterball cookies i cant even remember when the lst time i had them was..
wel now it's easy,, "todday"
lol

anyway.. also, the writer for the elevator show became my friend on facebook today.. it would really make my day if we accually became friends and not just names on a list

anyway.. i have 2 songs of the day today, and they arent just good songs, they r songs that i heard today and they made me fell a little bit better today...

the first is let her be by the beatles then it's "hear you me" by jimmy eats world

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YBPFvp750sc&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=scLcUfhd2kY

and my question is do u like either song.. yes or no

my answer.. yes, i like both songs...
let her b is a soothing song to me and i love the beatles and it's easy to sing along to
and hear you me is just a beautifully writen song

thoughts of the day

(thats right,, i sed thoughts)

1) "may angels lead u in"

2)"http://www.bash.org/?123586"

monday -- 12/28/09 -- 2:58am

is it fucking late?... yes

did i just stay up for an hour and a half watching the first season of the elevator show?... quite possibly, (i'm not sure what season it was, it said sewason 1)

was it worth it? hell yes it was

i love that show,, it's on youtube... look it up, then while ur at it, after ur done loving it u can nominate them for a streamy, witch is apparently a internet version of a grammy

anyway... i didnt do much of nothing today

the biggest thing i did was i went into town and i hung out with some of bob's friends

bob accually gave me a good symbol for life today...

the tic tac toe game of life..."some times u win, sometimes u loose, but it's almost always a cat's game... and "X's" cheat"

and yes, thats was quoted directly from bob's one friend

because he had a tic tac toe game and there was 5 X's and only 3 O's

lol
anyway... it's 3am and i have nothing for u guys.. no song, no question, and hell, i'll make the quote above for the thought of the day

and for the song instead just go to youtube and watch a episode of elevator, and the question is "what did u think of the elevator?"

so there u go, another quick makeshift "shit of the day"... and i just desided that the song will become a link (tho i'll still try to make it a song) and everything will collectivly b known as "the shit of the day"

that way now i have a TOTD, QOTD, LOTD, and now "SOTD" for everything

anyway... i already told u i love elevator, so theres my answer of the day

have a great day, i'll talk to u all later

sunday -- 12/27/09 -- 12:36

ok, a quick post today

all i did was put the food back into the freezers, and throw some of the shit away
thats about it

well i gotto talk to sue, that was nice

o, ya... i got to see avitar today... my i have access to a totally legal dvd of the movie in theatres
lol
it's s great movie, u should go see it

so those were the 3 big things that happened today ~ freezer, sue, avitar

and sorry i dont have time to give u a song thought or question of the day, my dad is startign to get pissy that i'm not in bed

so i'll see about giving that all to u tomarrow

accually, screw it... i'll give u a very quick version of everything..

SOTD: hot hot heat - bandages.... good song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y3N9iSBanTs&feature=PlayList&p=2C0A8113B1AD1BBC&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=26

QOTD: do u have family, like siblings, parents, step parents, foster parents, whatever... also do u have friends that u consider family?

thought of the day

"bandages have advantages too"